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I was just talking to my friend "Confused" last night, who has recently broken up with her boyfriend. she still likes him but he was cutting himself off from all his friends and a whole bunch of stuff like that; so she felt like it was her fault and she didn't want him to lose all his friends (which is wat was happening), so she broke up with him.
this all happened about a month ago, a few days after my ex "heartbreaker" broke up with me.
so like i was saying, me and Conused were talking last night...and i realized...that not only did i lose my boyfriend whom i loved...but i lost my best friend. i told him everything, he told me everything. no one could make me laugh like him. and no one could make me feel the way he could. i ended up sobbing as i was talking to her. its just a horrible feeling. i miss him so much! i can't even describe it; no matter how much i write about it, talk about....it doesn't make a difference.
i think the fact that he was my best friend, is wat makes me moving on so hard. because he was the person i would turn to for everything...and now i don't have him anymore. so whenever something good or bad happens he is the one i want to tell first...but then i realize that i can't tell him anymore. which sux.
i have just never felt so broken and empty before.
i still love him and will always have a place for him in my heart...but at the same time i am resenting him at this point for making me feel so terrible.
one of my other friends "red" asked me the other day if he asked me out again if i would say yes.
and i wasn't sure...i think i would say yes again; and thats wat isaid.
but she saud i couldn't because it wouldn't be good for me because of wat he has done to me.
but i can't help the way i feel. no matter wat...no matter who im with...i will always think of him. this relationship was different from all the other. HE was different. he GOT me, he understood me.
i kno this sounds cheesy but...we really did go together.
....maybe that was wat was wrong, maybe we were too much alike...idk
all i know is that i miss him, my love...and my best friend. |
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Posted by shoppin_honey on 2008-02-17 23:56:22 | Rating: | Views: 101
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I understand completley. I am in the same situation. I was in fault of the break-up and he is so mad at me he wont even talk to me so it's really hard. I feel the same way you do. I will always love him and I miss him so much but I think that the fact that he was my best friend makes it 100 times worse. Hang in there t will get better...thats what everyone says to me...
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Posted by Lost3358
on 2008-02-18 18:42:53
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thank you
and im sorry about your situation too
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Posted by shoppin_honey
on 2008-02-19 14:03:51
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IT's ok u have friends that will be there for you. I hope u feel better
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Posted by tH4UmwSTOPrT
on 2008-03-25 23:00:08
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