So sorry it has taken me so long to get back to you. I had some drama to tend to...since that is what I am and all. I'm sure you will understand.

As for my "child", she has a name. And she has nothing to do with anything so please do not ever even include her in your personal attacks on me.

You are correct in that my unexplainable need to have any contact with you is "not your problem". Believe me. I wish I could pretend you didn't exist. I wish to God that you would just fall of the face of the Earth. But that is not reality. I have never been one to ignore my problems, or pretend things don't exist. I'm a realist. Or what you like to call, Drama. Whatever you want to call it, it doesn't hurt me one bit. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and I know that probably is one of my downfalls. Since you don't seem have a heart at all, I can see how this would boggle your mind. But I am not ashamed. I pride myself in knowing how to express myself. Emotional intelligence, I think it's called.

I will relish in the fact that I know how to be a grown up, as opposed to you. I know how to be mature, as opposed to you. I know that I am not a victim to everyone. You seem to live life by "this is what everyone has done to me", rather than asking yourself what you may done to them. I know how to be a human being, aware of people other than myself...as opposed to you. I relish in the fact that I will continue to live my life knowing that I am truly happy, not just trying to convince myself or others that I am. I am a good mother, wife, friend, and I was always a good sister. As opposed to my opinion of you.

I never locked my two year old in the bathroom with the lights off as a disciplinary measure. I never pinned her to the ground as she threw a temper tantrum. I never stopped talking to my mother because she hung up on me during a phone call. I never stopped talking to my father or my sister because they called me up while they may have been a little tipsy to tell me how they felt. I never shut people out who care about me. I never run away from my problems.

Living with a bitter heart will only ruin you. Having hate in your heart will make you miserable. I know this. Because I lived that way for so long. But I woke up one day and realized that I can't do that anymore. I have to try and do right by everyone and myself because that is the only way to move on. And as long as I have tried, as long as I have done what I needed to do on my end, I have already achieved in making myself a better person. I am going to be okay that you will always be a miserable piece of shit. I will always be a better person than you, because I will never be like you.

-Me