It was the best day of our lives finding out finally i had this new life inside of me.

i ofcourse was wrapped up in cotton wool and smothered with love.

it seemed to last forever  seeing the first scan watching our miracle

feeling the kicks ,watching tha waves of movement ocross my stomach.

i would sing  my miracle to sleep and would dream of days to be.

 it was very difficult and i didnt really mind being sick morning noon and night.

near the end we were filled with excitement.  the scratchin till i bled and the heartburn,

the overheating the swelling of my feet ,dipping my hands and feet in ice cold water

after rubbing them hard on the carpet in between.

it all was normal so i was told.

I was due on the 25th of march and it was the 21st of march when i woke at 4 am to find i was in labour

i was so excited i bathed took some paracetamol and paced untill i woke him to say it was time

we were both so excited he made bacon which neither of us would eat.i rang my mum and midwife.

i had a show felt strange then went to the hospital with my contractions 5 minutes apart.

mum waved us off and returned to knit the lemon cardigan she wanted to finish it before our miracle was here.

then came the end..........

our miracle didnt move didnt listen didnt feel she was gone....

the heart moniter and scan revealed she had passed to a better place

a place i wanted to be..

i screamed for god ..................................why  ?why why me noooooooooooooo

no one answered  

we both went through a long agonising birth as i was asured a natural labour would be better fo me

i dont know if it was its pain i never forget.

she was born 6 minutes past 3 next morning it was mothers day .

there she was our angel she was so perfect so much hair she looked faast asleep .

we slept as much as we could we held her and let family see her we loved her she was our angel 

and she is our angel now and allways .

she would of been 9 now and not a day goes by where she is not in my thoughts

she knows that .

we still visit her tiny grave and her brother and sister lay flowers at her feet .

she will allways be apart of our lives.

she is our ANGELXXX