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It's been a crazy afternoon. G/f has been on an emotional rollercoaster. She's already cried two or three times this afternoon and decided to walk around naked (with only panties on) until dark. don't ask me why. If I knew all the answers to why the opposite sex does things, I'd be rich and getting what I want. Some people might think that this kind of behavior is sexy or erotic, but it's not. I was disgusted.
Let's give her the benefit of the doubt; it's almost "that time of the month" and her great-grandmother just died. I try to be supportive, but it becomes personal sometimes.
The only time that I left the house today was to take out some garbage. The only thing that I did that was fun was playing with the cats. I love to play games with them and also photograph them. That sounds weird, but I love photography and they are fairly-willing subjects.
I've been dreaming alot over the past month or so. My dreams are very vivid and there are so many that it's difficult to remember them all. This morning I had a dream that I was back on the farm that I grew up on. There were a bunch of horses running toward me. I tried to stop them, which worked temporarily, but when they saw that I wanted to stop them, the slowed down and began talking to me in plain english. They were being reassuring, telling me that it was ok, they would come back later. Then, a huge group of smaller animals came running thru and all of them were talking to me all at once too. But it wasn't chaotic or annoying. There were more dreams, and then there was what I would call a premonition. There seems to be a difference in the feeling and the scene of the two. The premonition was me walking away from g/f with one/some of my other friends, knowing that my relationship was over and a new beginning was happening. My friend(s) seemed to be reassuring me that I was making the right decision. It kind of scared me, b/c I'm not ready for that. sometimes I get mad at g/f, but I don't want to leave her. I have too much invested and I know that she loves me and I love her. But I do honestly feel that if she doesn't change her attitude regarding insecurity, we won't last.
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Posted by shinsfrommars on 2008-01-20 23:26:29 | Rating: | Views: 106
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your dreams are manifestations of unreloved issues you delt with troughout the day,i cant speek on your relationship,because its not my place to,however coming from a girl with moodswing issues,it can drain the life out of a relationship,i know relationships take hard work but if your unhappy most of the time,ask yourself is that what you want out of live to spend the rest of your life on eggshells,doging bombs.the hobby thing is good,dont get lost in others trageties try to keep yourself in tact,peace and love
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Posted by necronomincon
on 2008-01-21 00:45:37
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