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Sin - and what being a non-conformist is like
You know, I was raised a Baptist Christian and I still am to this day, although I definitely hide some of my more sexually "inappropriate" behaviors and fantasies from most others just because I don't think anyone can be trusted. First of all, I identify as a lesbian. I love women......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 11:59:50 | Rating:

| Views: 53 | Comments: 1 | Tags: sin non-conformity baptist christian lesbian sexual behaviors sexual fantasies sex toys women religious guilt

why the government pisses me off
i can't stand any of the presidential candidates and am not voting in this fall's election, because i feel that they are bigots and liars and are only motivated by money. not to mention the fact that i think running a presidency campaign at all (or any political campaign, for that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 12:21:46 | Rating:

| Views: 35 | Comments: 0 | Tags: government obama survival of the richest power social security retirement campaign national deficit boosting the economy power of love meaningless words

seriously.
Life is crazy, but then again, you probably already knew that. I'm feeling ultra-overwhelmed lately with all the shit going on in my life, but I'm just gonna have to keep my fucking mouth shut, grin and bear it. It's gonna suck, but it's what has to be done. I just never realized how hard life......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 12:35:06 | Rating:

| Views: 21 | Comments: 0 | Tags: life craziness difficulty feeling overwhelmed

I need to get my act together
Facebook never fails to make me feel chronically inadequate compared to my peers. All the kids I went to high school with seem successful now. A lot of them are married with kids, or in professional careers. I just need to remember that everyone goes through life at their own pace and that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 12:38:59 | Rating:

| Views: 59 | Comments: 1 | Tags: facebook inadequacy peers high school marriage children professional career mental illness excuses rocket scientist neurologist dream job

Uploading photos
I'm trying to upload some of my photos to Flickr. I'm missing the USB cable that goes to my camera, so I'm pretty limited as far as what I can upload. I have a couple pics on my phone that I've sent to my e-mail and a few pics of me from someone else's album, but that's about it. Grr... I wish I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 12:42:43 | Rating:

| Views: 29 | Comments: 0 | Tags: uploading photos flickr memories

I'm depressed, but then again, what else is new?
I guess I'm just waiting for the psych meds to kick in. I probably need to give them another week or two to really start having an effect. I haven't been on a steady stream of medication for probably close to a year now.... and it's pretty damn obvious if you......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 13:51:22 | Rating:

| Views: 45 | Comments: 2 | Tags: medication ex-girlfriend court extension of restraining order being sued creditor disability bills getting out of control legal problems better decisions major events loss of income

Who wants to join my pity party?
Sometimes I think it'd be easier merely to exist in the shadows. After all, what good am I doing anyone in the limelight? All I seem to do is mess things up and confuse the hell out of myself. I almost never make the right decision and I'm constantly depressed, so of course no......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 15:14:50 | Rating:

| Views: 42 | Comments: 2 | Tags: self-pity messing things up confusing myself wrong decisions depression happy full of life the little girl I used to be cynical angry mistakes lazy selfish

Right, I have no life
I'm trying to figure out what to do tonight. Yeah, a lot of people would figure I have no life because I'm constantly posting. Trust me, you don't know the whole story. I'm trying to distract myself from going completely crazy because of everything that's going on inside my head......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 16:07:19 | Rating:

| Views: 38 | Comments: 0 | Tags: plans for tonight no life going crazy tired church txt conversation Sara headache nausea residual effects symptoms