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Nice to spend time with an old friend again
I got to spend some time with Sara tonight. We went out and got ice cream (at Maggie Moo's, no less) and spent 2 hours sitting in front of the store talking about everything from sex to politics to racism. It was great to sit and have a long, intelligent discussion like that. I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 22:33:08 | Rating:

| Views: 53 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Sara ice cream Maggie Moo's sex politics racism intelligent discussion intellectual stimulation humor sexual references feeling better

Poetry
I'm considering publishing my collection of poetry. I've been writing for years, since high school, and I'd like to try to get some of my work published. I don't know if I'll be able to, since I really don't have a lot of talent, in my own opinion, anyway. Some of what I write......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 22:28:16 | Rating:

| Views: 34 | Comments: 0 | Tags: poetry publication collection writing high school lack of talent abstract concepts poetry blog

Right, I have no life Explicit Content
I'm trying to figure out what to do tonight. Yeah, a lot of people would figure I have no life because I'm constantly posting. Trust me, you don't know the whole story. I'm trying to distract myself fro m going completely crazy because of everything that's going on inside my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 16:07:19 | Rating:

| Views: 38 | Comments: 0 | Tags: plans for tonight no life going crazy tired church txt conversation Sara headache nausea residual effects symptoms dizzy lightheaded doctor psychosomatic illness

Who wants to join my pity party?
Sometimes I think it'd be easier merely to exist in the shadows. After all, what good am I doing anyone in the limelight? All I seem to do is mess things up and confuse the hell out of myself. I almost never make the right decision and I'm constantly depressed, so of course no......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 15:14:50 | Rating:

| Views: 42 | Comments: 2 | Tags: self-pity messing things up confusing myself wrong decisions depression happy full of life the little girl I used to be cynical angry mistakes lazy selfish

I'm depressed, but then again, what else is new? Explicit Content
I guess I'm just waiting for the psych meds to kick in. I probably need to give them another week or two to really start having an effect. I haven't been on a steady stream of medication for probably close to a year now.... and it's pretty damn obvious if you......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 13:51:22 | Rating:

| Views: 45 | Comments: 2 | Tags: medication ex-girlfriend court extension of restraining order being sued creditor disability bills getting out of control legal problems better decisions major events loss of income

Uploading photos
I'm trying to upload some of my photos to Flickr. I'm missing the USB cable that goes to my camera, so I'm pretty limited as far as what I can upload. I have a couple pics on my phone that I've sent to my e-mail and a few pics of me from someone else's album, but that's about it. Grr... I wish I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 12:42:43 | Rating:

| Views: 29 | Comments: 0 | Tags: uploading photos flickr memories

I need to get my act together
Facebook never fails to make me feel chronically inadequate compared to my peers. All the kids I went to high school with seem successful now. A lot of them are married with kids, or in professional careers. I just need to remember that everyone goes through life at their own pace and that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 12:38:59 | Rating:

| Views: 59 | Comments: 1 | Tags: facebook inadequacy peers high school marriage children professional career mental illness excuses rocket scientist neurologist dream job

seriously. Explicit Content
Life is crazy, but then again, you probably already knew that. I'm feeling ultra-overwhelmed lately with all the XXXXX going on in my life, but I'm just gonna have to keep my XXXXX mouth shut, grin and bear it. It's gon na suck, but it's what has to be done. I just never realized how hard life......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 12:35:06 | Rating:

| Views: 21 | Comments: 0 | Tags: life craziness