everybody says it, but do they really mean it? is it just another word people use referring to you as their friend? or is it a caring jest to let you know that you are cared for??

i dont know anymore. i mean, its not like i've ever felt love before, i have nothing to compare it with. Nobody ever really lloved me  before. im talking about love love. not 'hey your my friend, i love you.' SCREW THAT! i have friends for that. friends that love me like that. yay. BIG DEAL! i want someone to love me for who i am.

i love you. will you please love me back?

-ok i wrote this awhile ago. its not how i feel anymore. i know that he loves me now. YAY!