Dreams are a good thing. Sometimes they motivate us and sometimes they help us through a rut. I remember though before moving into my new house I spent a lot of time daydreaming about it and what it would be like. I sometimes wonder if that was a way to escape some of the things in my life that I was not satisfied with. Happiness is accepting the moment, the present. Not looking into the future or the past. I wish you happiness my friend. Don't judge people by the ones you are with right now, there are many more different people in the world.

What's the rush? I have to say...as a single mom of 4 small children I would love to meet a man as sincere ans hinest about fatherhood as you seem to be. With all that love, charity and positive attitude...maybe there are kids that need you that won't be your own. Maybe you'll have both. I wish you all the best. Your last paragraph sound a lot like my life...I too am just wanting to find someone "real" to share it with.

I don't know whats going to happen in the near future, whether I will be able to have a whole army of my own or not. I doesnt matter to me if I meet someone with kids of her own, that needs a father figure like me, I'm alright with that too. But in general I'd love to have some of my own. I don't know what it is though, that's the way I am. I was once having a conversation with some friends just recently about this subject. I was telling them about the way that I am in general, I know what I am, but I'm still having trouble figuring out who I am. I told them: " I am a man who is designed to Love, and if I cant then I don't see the purpose for my existence." I mean I came along way, and I mean ALOOOONG WAY. For 22 years in my life and I been through enough as it is and all I want to do is settle down, to hell with the rest of the world. But, thank you though, for understanding and all, cause nobody knows how serious I am about what I feel you know? And it helps having people who knows how to appreciate the best things in life, which is life itself. Your daughter in the picture is beautiful by the way...