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as in, i need it. kind of desperately.
see, i cant ask my best friend for advice about my relationship issues anymore because i feel like ive already plagued her enough with them. so i'm asking you all nicely now.
this boy, his name is aaron, has been the one static aspect of my life since last year. hes consistent and safe and nice and ambitious, everything i would want after such an extensive history of pathetic guy stories.
so now we're dating. but its so painfully bland. i dont need hugs or kisses or hand holding even. i DO, however, need conversation and some type of EMOTION, for gods sake. we dont even have that anymore.
so im here now, dating this guy i thought i could have grown to actually love. but i see him everyday and i realize..well, hes TOO consistent. he doesnt get angry, sad, upset, or even like...really happy. hes always the same. and im not much of a drama queen but i do need some variety every once in a while. call me kooky?
im so exhausted of playing it safe now. and maybe, if it means a healthier relationship in my life, maybe i'd prefer the risk of heartbreak. with aaron, there isnt even that risk. if anything, id be the one to eventually hurt him because NOTHING affects him. its almost inhuman, scary.
so please tell me. what am i supposed to do?
i have options and there are guys that would make me happier than i am. but i couldnt hurt aaron for the world, i would rather fall apart myself. but i feel like im ripping at the seams here. like im dating my best friend.
but how and when do you decide when its better to put others before yourself, or look out for yourself so you dont get hurt again?
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I think you need to end the relationship with Aaron... you're clearly not happy and shouldnt stay in the relationship purely not to hurt him as staying with him when you arent happy will end up hurting him anyway...
You really need to do whatever you think will make YOU happy!!! Theres no point staying in an unhappy relationship! Get out there and find someone new and better for you...
You may have to kiss a lots of frogs but one day you will find your prince charming!!!
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Posted by rinniez
on 2008-03-16 21:41:11
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Tell him how you feel, honesty is the best thing for any relationship. if you guys are close enough you should be able to talk about it and discuss it and by being completely sincere and caring niether one of you will hurt as bad if you need to end it. I mean afterall as far as you know he might feel the same way... honesty is the best answer
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Posted by Idoart
on 2008-03-16 22:56:57
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