I was driving in the car today, and for the first time in a long time, I realized that I felt a sense of normalcy.  A feeling that the secrets that I have been keeping to myself for almost a whole year now, are no longer isolating me from everyone else. 

Today is December 8th.  I think today is the day when a change is beginning.  I feel like I am finally beginning to let go, not completely, and not forgetting everything that has happened.  I cannot forget, but I can look forward, I can allow myself to smile, I can value all that I have and not be consumed by all that I’ve lost. 

I am beginning to accept that life is not always fair.  Bad things do happen to you.  That is inevitable.  But I think that it is most important to not let these events define you; you can’t forget them, but you can carry them with you and learn from them, use them, let them help you grow. 

I have grown.  Or at least I am beginning to.  Looking forward, I am scared, I am apprehensive, but I am also wiser, stronger, and more appreciative.