Why is it that I feel the most alone when I am surrounded by 42 other girls? I feel alone with no one to talk to. Fourty-two girls, half of whom are some of my best friends. I really miss my best best friend, she is in Spain. I want someone to talk to but she is the only one I feel comfortable talking with. Don’t get me wrong, I have amazing friends here but I feel like if I tell them that I feel sad they wont understand why; they will ask me and I wont even know how to answer. I don’t know why I am upset, but I am. I have a couple close friends that say that it is okay if I call them when I am upset no matter what time it is, no matter if they are crazy busy or dead asleep, but I know. I know that no one likes the person they can’t help. I am afraid that is me. Sometimes I feel that I make my closest friends feel that way: that no matter what they say they can’t help me. What is wrong with me? Why am I so unhappy? Why do I feel so alone? How can I make it better?