So it's been about three weeks since my last few enteries.. And while I can't proclaim total happiness, I'm not as down as I was before. I still get angry at myself, but now a days its more sporadic. Which is a good sign. I have to keep remindng myself that the fact that I went through this just means that I am (and always have been) the type to learn the hard way. (Although I'm still conflicted about my faith, it is comforting to believe that God wanted me to go through this for a reason. A reason which, I have no idea as to what it could be. But it's comforting nonetheless.)

 So much for updating... I'm tired...

Smell ya later.