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We have a board meeting today. I am nervus as I always am before these. The first one I ever went to (and put stuff together for) I messed up somethings. I had only worked here a month so everyone just sortof wrote it off. But now I have been here 4 months and everyone is going to think I should have it down. I have check and double check everything until I can't check anymore. But I still have doubts about myself. Always doubting myself. I am harder on myself that anyone. I have to take the minutes and I am always afraid I will leave something important out so I write way to much. At least last time I did. Like I said I am too hard on myself but I can't stop it.

I have my meds again and that is good they are in my system and I feel better already. I wont do that again. Go without my anti-depresent. I will always have to be on meds for my bipolar disorder but I thought maybe not as much. But I was wrong. Anti-depressents, Mood Stablizer, Anti-pyscotic, and a sleeping pill, oh and one for anxiety. Lots of pills.

Anyway, I best get back to work... wish me luck!