Do you ever look at your children and think man I dont know how in the world that came from me? I look at my children and they are my everything. They make me want to better myself and become the best thing I can possibly be just for them. I can honestly say my children have made me into a better woman. I used to be so shy and sensitive. I hated to talk to people I didnt know. I have found out that once you have a baby and become a mother your whole world turns around. I am only 23 but man have my babys grown me up fast. I no longer am that shy reserved girl who is scared of the world. I used to be so sensitive and people could make me cry so easy. I now to an extent stand up and say  what I feel. I have never been one to really let people run me over but I certainly on the inside would get upset. I never let people see that though I held it in until I got home. I am so proud to say I am a mother! God has blessed me with the 2 most presious boys I have ever laid my eyes on. I can say I have much more worrys and fears now but its all worth it for my babys. My babys keep me from being lonely. They make me smile and say I love you so much. They always do the absolute cutest things.Sure they are not saints they drive me insane most of the time. I am so thankful God anwered my prayers and gave me my boys! When I need a hug or a kiss or a little friend they are always there for me. I grew up in a semi big family of 6. So whenever I moved out I was so sad and lonely with it just being me and my husband and I always wanted people to come live with me to keep me from being lonely. I was so sad but now my boys are filling that void that I was missing. I cant even begin to say how thankful I am for them.  I just know they make me so happy! Of course they make me tired, exausted, and many other worn out feeling because they are only 1 and 3 but its all worth it. I am thankful I have my husband who will every once in a while give me a break. I understand now though how as a child I got away with allot more with my mom than my dad. As women we are the push overs...atleast I am. I hate to see my children sad so my oldest knows if I get on to him most likely I am going to give in and say "I love you" or "I am sorry you just have to listen to mommy"  which I know is not good its just the site of them sad makes me sad. So in my house I have to sometimes get my husband to help me when he doesnt listen because he knows daddy means business. I just though I would share with all of you the love I have for my boys. They are like my long lost loves as long as I have them I am loved!