omg!!!!
im fukin dying but i aint trying to show it!!
im sooooo desperate!
i havent talked to my bf since sunday when i kicked him out my crib! but thats becuz he was acting up and he got on my nerves he was basically being an assho!
so on monday in the afternoon i sent him a text askign him if he was mad and he said no well neway he said he need time, idont know time for wat!! neway i havent talked to him at all today and lord knows its killin me i have no idea wat hes feeling or thinkin and i wish i could just know whats on his mind. i dont wanna b the one to ask him or call him cuz i dont want him to think i care that much even tho i know i do. but i feel like why should i care if he obviously dont! its eating me up alive and i am tryin so hard not to think of it. i pray that soon i canb post a blog about how he called me and apologized and how things are great now but right now im soo doubting that is gna happen anytime soon and is it even gonna happen. its the worst ever feeling!
i think thats why im agreeing to see my old flame to forget a lil about it and feel less bad even tho i know its not the best thing to do.
OH YEA HE DIDNT COME LAST NITE LIKE I POSTED THAT HE WOULD CUZ I FELL ASLEEP AND DIDNT HEAR HIS TEXTS SO NEWAY HE SAID HE WILL COME LATER TONITE AND I ALREADY SAID YES AND I THINK I ONLY AGREE CUZ I KNOW THINGS ARENT GOOD WITH T....!!!
 
lord help me figure things out and hope it all works for the best!!