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Saturdays are usually hung over and movie filled. Not this saturday, thank goodness. I don't work today so i slept in really late. almost half of my day. The guy I was seeing decided he wants to see his ex and all I can think is am i prettier than her. How sick is that? I don't care what kinda person she is or obviously how much happier she makes him all I care is if i look better than her on my bad days because that gives me a piece of mind that lets me sleep at night without having to be so dead tired that i just crash out. They dont live in the same city, he lives in the same city as me with his brother who is my best friends husband and she lives in another city with her two kids, another thing I don't understand because I don't have kids and neither does he and she is old and i am young and he is young. The words that run thru my mind are, how in a million years is she better than me? and WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! I feel like I am babbling and saying things that maybe don't make sense because I am hurting. I hate not having control of my life and lately it seems like it is spinning out of control on I'm on the outside of my own life looking in, like a child playing bouble dutch just waiting for the right time to jump in.
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Posted by shanlove on 2008-02-16 15:46:37 | Rating: | Views: 60
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