On Wednesday night my friends mom commited suicide, another person i know that chose to take their own life. My friend who commited didnt have any children but he did have family, friends and ppl who loved him. My friends mom left behind her husband, 4 children and 2 grand children. How someone could not think they have anything to live for when they have children and grand children completely blows my mind. The scary thing about both of them is, they both showed absolutely no signs of being suicidal or depression. I just live an hour and a half away from my mom and sometimes I miss her so much my heart hurts I could NEVER imagine losing her forever now or ever.  This may sound stupid but the Little Mermaid said it when she said, "I dont see how a world that makes such wonderful things can be bad" in reality it is a cartoon but the innocence is beautiful like a childs and children have this trust and love for the world that we as grown ups no longer carry because we'v been hurt, broken-hearted and let down which throws up guards some higher than others. My guards are so high that I think the next man I let into my life will most definately have to be a mountain climber.
shan