Hello. I am writing this so I can write down my feelings without anyone knowing. This blog is going to be mainly about how I feel about Ry. Well here I go.....Sometimes I wonder if we're even supposed to be together and I wonder if meeting him and saying yes to his engagment was the right thing to do! When it happened it all seemed so right. He has given me whatever I want whenever I want it. He's very loving. But some of the things he does just irks me! Like, he always has to be touching me at all times. I'm not a very touchy feely person. I don't reallyl like to be touched. He always wants kisses and hugs. I don't like to do that all the time. He wants me to go to Denver, CO. with him and I already told him I want to go to school and get that done but he is saying that he doesn't want to be separated! But I really need at least a little bit without any site of him because we've been together, side by side, for at least four maybe five of the months that we've been together! I need a freaking break. We don't see eye to eye on anything whenever I say something that I like or love or something like that he always thinks it's supid or asks a million questions to why and when I tell him why he in his own way puts me down. And when it comes to other males he throws a fit and temps to break up with me. I have more guys as friends than girls. Also my ex boyfriends he expects me to never even think about them again. Well I am friends with most of them and I talk to them at least once a month. I wonder if the way he was raised is the reason he acts the way he does now. In a way he's selfish. And I understand that but sometimes I just don't want what he wants. And in a way i'm being selfish to