Oh dear, you ARE in a grumpy mood - lol. Life is all about learning to be tolerant and compromising - not easy for a lot of us, including me. Have a good day.

Finding a space in a quiet as hell place where you got goo book is the ideal place, I agree. Sometimes its hard for me to say whats on mind, because its like 'nobody can read your mind' and like well you should have said something
(If it were me I'd totally clam up) but I a therap right now and so I am getting much more and more confident each and evryday, thanks be to God! My holy Father ad his son Jesus may he annoint you with the power of the Lord on your journay to get married and stuff...do go wth the flow, dont try to put too much on your mind to fdo things (this why we have the wedding planners, so they can do all this shit for you)cuz you might become a "Bridezila lol..then'd you really go nutd cuz evrybody has to have their on way...so I can hope thatGod watches you though these difficulty times. I love you God, Rob... God so let their be peoace with ya.

Rob song...

I know that I should calm down and be tolerant. It is so hard though. I get so overwhelmed. And the absolute worst part is that there was this other guy in my life, PastorMan, and he was so good at helping me manage my stress. He is a youth pastor, and he was always encouraging me to go to God with any issues that I may have, and to be at peace with whatever is happening. But with my fiance, I feel like I am losing that part of my life. My relationship with God feels like it is totally fading and I know, I KNOW that is a huge issue and that it is why I feel so stressed and annoyed and frustrated! I know in the back of my head that I need to have that time to get back where I need to be, but I fill my days and stay busy and I lose that piece of myself. I actually had to dust off my Bible today. That is just crazy. I don't know what I am doing.....