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sadly i feel so depressed, lonely, and worn out today, even in a room full of people i feel alone.
but you know how it is.. we gotta do what we gotta do. so i just pull my bootstrings together, paint on a smile, and get it done. as for what all happened today. nothing bad. it was a good day. so why do i feel this way.
i got an 91 on my medical manager final. which is good. im happy about that. and hubby and i havent fought yesterday or today. i think one of the problems that im having is that im getting off the "girl cycle" and coming down with a cold at the same time. i wanna crawl in a fox hole and hide until i start feeling better. but that is not an option that i have.
my sister is coming in from the army to visit. she doesnt talk to me that much anymore. she now has army friends and looking at guy friends. her and i used to be so close, but since she has been in the army we have became so distant. maybe i will blog about that later. but anyway last time she came in i only got to see her one time. bummer.
james (hubby) has tomorrow off. so i hope i feel better then. even if we have been fighting. i still feel so much better when i have him by my side. its like automatic secure feeling when he is with me. like nothing can hurt me. and if my emotions do take over he talk to me about everything and makes me feel better.
although sadly i feel bad about that bc we stopped smoking cigarettes but with how much stress i have been under i have became a closet smoker. i know.. shun me. on the plus side at least that is all i can say that is in the closet. i hope to stop it though soon. i feel bad about that situation.
im physically feeling run down and sick. something like vertigo is going with me right now. idk.. it may be my blood sugar. i havent been eating much lately. but i havent had an appetite. i hope to get it all worked out soon and get everything back on track.
i start new classes next week. we havent got a clue yet how those ones are gonna be run. whats going to be online and what nights we have to go to the college. oh well. i guess we will get the info
so if u wanna chat with me to help pass some time IM me on here. i will answer for as long as im on.
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Posted by shadow_gurly on 2008-10-01 22:56:14 | Rating: | Views: 38
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