Thoughts - sexcsyrian's blogs

sexcsyrian's Profile

Links

User Profile

sexcsyrian's Blogs

Gooooood RIDDANCE. Explicit Content
It's been a while since I've blogged. I realize my last few posts have all been based around stephen. And now I'm here to post the final blog about him. A lot has happened. We talked things out and went back to each other. I fell even harder then ever before. But then I ended up......Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-11 04:12:42 | Rating:

| Views: 28 | Comments: 0 | Tags: relationship

no more blood to bleed,
i have no hate or resentment towards him anymore, because he never fooled me, i always knew it would come down to this but i gave him the benefit of the doubt, i don't blame myself and i have no anger towards myself either because i was just trying to see the best in others, no......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-15 19:03:11 | Rating:

| Views: 36 | Comments: 0 | Tags: relationships

relationship withdrawals? Explicit Content
if i only knew how to deal with all these feelings of anger and resentment lingering on maybe letting go wouldn't be so hard if those strings weren't attached i probably heard the mo st inspirational quote i've ever come across the other day, "You're bigger then your biggest......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-11 00:30:14 | Rating:

| Views: 46 | Comments: 0 | Tags: relationships

anddddddd it's OVER. Explicit Content
that wasn't love, that was just the ROUGH draft.. one day i'll fix my errors, & have the perfect FINAL copy (: i had the hardest time letting go of stephen - at one point it felt like if i had a scale, i could put a thousand reasons not to be with him on one end & only......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-05 02:36:54 | Rating:

| Views: 63 | Comments: 3 | Tags: relationships

blah blahhh blah ! Explicit Content
it's so amazing how we can be SO sure that we know all kinds of things about ourselves and yet there's an absolutely different realm unconsciously existing within us that slowly unfolds with every experience, contradicti ng everything we swore our lives on. i kinda like it. life never......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-30 17:33:00 | Rating:

| Views: 74 | Comments: 0 | Tags: life

"When you're ready to let go.. Explicit Content
.. It'll be the easiest decision you've ever made." - Ashley :) don't get me wrong, it was definitely the hardest decision when i was thinking it over.. but it just gets to a point where you're like f uck ittt I NEEDA LET GO. i know that he's changed, i know that he genuinely......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-13 19:22:56 | Rating:

| Views: 67 | Comments: 1 | Tags: break up

gratitude. Explicit Content
i thought i'd open up this blog & make an entry about how extremely grateful i am for my life. everyone should take a few moments out of everyday and realize how grateful they are.. regardless of the situation & ...Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-26 06:06:32 | Rating:

| Views: 38 | Comments: 0 | Tags: gratitude

blehhhhhhh Explicit Content
one of the hardest decisions would have to be deciding if you can continue a relationship or not. you don't know what you're walking out on.. you don't know what could've been.. you don't know if you're ri ght or wrong. you pretty much have to put all trust in your intution - and that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-12 07:58:00 | Rating:

| Views: 54 | Comments: 0 | Tags: bleh

i know exactly what i want but, Explicit Content
i'm tredding down territories i've never been. so recently i've gotten into a relationship.. my FIRST 'real' relationship so to say, and it's made me realize a lot. first and foremos...Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-30 05:30:18 | Rating:

| Views: 93 | Comments: 0 | Tags: relationship

another 'XXXXX everyone' mood. Explicit Content
people can speak the words that i speak - claim they understand the way i do - claim they feel what i feel.. but do they really? how do you EVER positvely know you have that 'connection' with someone? the way you perciev...Read More