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Gooooood RIDDANCE.

It's been a while since I've blogged.

I realize my last few posts have all been based around stephen. And now I'm here to post the final blog about him.

A lot has happened. We talked things out and went back to each other. I fell even harder then ever before. But then I ended up finding out he had kept a lot of things away from me.. lied again. Even was out with another girl denying it.

What can I say? I'm surprised how well I'm able to recover, that's all. Once a bull shitter, always a bull shiter. And I always knew this, I just always gave him the benefit of the doubt hoping there was good in him.

I've seen myself change a lot - this is why I gave him the benefit of the doubt, I thought MAYBE he too could change. But I was wrong for seeing others through my reflection.

I don't look back at him as someone important. Just a huge road bump in life! I hold no resentment or anger, I disregarded everything and just kept arund the lessons learned.

Moral of the story? TRUST YOUR INTUITION ABOVE ALL. I was dumbfounded when I found out he lied to me, because I knew it all along. He would always go out of his way to prove to me how much he cared, but I just don't think he ever really knew what he wanted or why he wanted it and for what.

I will never give a second chance at rebuilding trust. Trust is so delicate and fragile, even when you think you can give the person another chance, deep down you will always hold resentment. And that resentment will always effect the relationship.

Oh yeah - and you will get hurt no matter who you end up with. JUST MAKE SURE THE PERSON IS WORTH GETTING HURT FOR!! Stephen definitely wasn't and I'm grateful for having the opportunity to see his true colors.

It's definitely been one of the most hurtful experiences finding out someone you planned SO MUCH with has decieved you so badly. Especially since goodbyes to me are the most difficult things, I get so attached and I feel like everything I'm attached to becomes apart of me. It got to a point I couldn't possibly picture this person not being in my life years from now. But I'm not one to stay down, I can honestly say I'm over it. Just gotta stay optimistic and always try to look at the situation in the most positive ways possible.

Pain is only temporary.. and pittying yourself over someone screwing you over will only bring you down even more.

8 fucking months of on-going bull shit with him. All I can say is GOOOOOOOD RIDDANCE !