everytime i go out, i always end up feeling like shit.

it's like i can go out and have an amazing time.. but i come back home and i always feel like SOMETHING is missing. none of the "fun" and good times are just good enough. i don't know what the fuck the missing void is.

i don't even know why i end up feeling like shit after i go out.. as opposed to when i'm alone and bored. atleast when i'm alone i guess i'm occupied with thoughts of my own and conversations in my head.. instead of filling my head with the mundane conversations of society.

god, i'm SO fucking sick of societies standards and expectations. but to some extent i live up to them.. because i've been around them for so fucking long they're basically programmed in my fucking head.

life.. ahh.. it's so mundane. SOO fucking mundane. something is just missing.. i have the biggest void in my life and i can't seem to fill it. nothing is filling it. i don't even fucking know what it is in order to TRY TO FILL IT