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i FUCKING hate living in this house.. i swear it just keeps getting worst and worst. i can't stand anyone i live with whatsoever. my family are the only people i love in this world but i literally CAN'T STAND THEM WHATSOEVER.. i can't be that "passive, compromising" person because i'm just TOO damn passionate about what i personally believe is right and how i PERSONALLY WOULD LIKE TO FUCKING LIVE MY LIFE. god, am i so fucking wrong for that?
i swear i'm going to emancipate myself from my parents as soon as i possibly can - and if my family doesn't want to be apart of my life just because they disagree with the way i chose to live my life.. I CAN HONESTLY SAY I DON'T GIVE A FUCK. my family isn't my life, no one is my life, my life is just me.. as selfish as that sounds, they're more than welcome to be apart of it as long as they don't tell me how to live it. I WOULD UNDERSTAND THEM SIMPLY GIVING ME ADVICE ON HOW TO LIVE - BUT ENFORCING THINGS ON ME THE WAY THEY DO IS LITERALLY JUST WRONG and i hope i never forget that when i have kids.
i'm no longer a little child.. i may still be young at 16 years old but i can say i have a lot more wisdom than most people around my age. WHAT MORE DO THEY WANT TO CONTROL? i know exactly what i want to be in life, i'm graduating early, i have so many goals for my future, I DON'T DO DRUGS - personally, as long as i knew my child has their priorities straight and a good head on their shoulders, THERE IS NO MORE I WOULD BE CONCERNED ABOUT.. except safety, but of course EVEN KEEPING ME IN THE HOUSE FOREVER HAS IT'S SAFETY RISKS.
my family constantly push everything they believe is right on me.. LITERALLY. but i can't say i'm completely innocent, i've screwed with my parents trust a lot.. like getting suspended for fights, getting expelled for marijuanna - BUT JESUS CHRIST THAT WAS MORE THAN 3 YEARS AGO IN JR HIGH SCHOOL. i've changed and grew so fucking much i can't even begin to describe it, GOOD LORD HOW MUCH I'VE CHANGED AND THEY DON'T REALIZE IT?!
i'm so sick of how judgmental and critical they can be as well. the standards they enforce on me and the standards they expect everyone to have - IT'S RIDICULOUS. i literally personally got offended and bitched at my sister today in the car after she insulted a friend of mine.. his dad bailed out on him when he was younger and so now my sister assumes HIS ENTIRE FAMILY IS TRASH AND HE'S PROBABLY THAT WAY TOO. what kind of fucking bull shit is that? THAT'S JUST A FUCKING SMALL EXAMPLE OF HOW JUDGMENTAL MY FAMILY IS.
i swear to god after that i lost all the respect i ever managed to have for my sister. i can't even believe the degree of what a fucking LOW BLOW that was.. my fucking god. what pissed me off even more is when she said she wanted to tell my parents to keep me even more restrained from shit, SERIOUSLY, WAHT KIND OF FUCKING BULL SHIT IS THAT? i swear to god i literally wanted to KILL my sister when she said that.. i've never wanted to kill someone like i did in that moment BUT LUCKILY MY CONSCIENCE KICKED BACK IN.
i understand in her mind she wants to enforce everything she believes is right on me because she thinks thats whats best for me.. BUT JESUS CHRIST, IS IT SO WRONG OF ME TO ASK FOR SOME UNDERSTANDING IN RETURN?!?!
I'M A FUCKING PERSON OF MY OWN.. a person who likes to make their own descions, form their own opinions, ETC. a person who LOVES their freedom.. a person who fucking loves life PURELY for the freedom... THEY CAN'T KEEP ME RESTRAINED AND CONTROLED. I SWEAR TO GOD I'M ABOUT TO FLIP THE FUCK OUT!
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Posted by sexcsyrian on 2008-01-17 20:47:38 | Rating: | Views: 113
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You and this AmandaChronicles can use the F word in posts and NOT get that extremely annoying EXPLICIT CONTENT label???? That is nuts!! What was in my post about "Juno" that was explicit?? Pregnancy? Virginity? Please. What has happenned to this site?
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Posted by brainstormer
on 2008-01-17 22:53:23
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haha actually.. all my blogs are labeled explicit content. apparently i'm just explicit, period.
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Posted by sexcsyrian
on 2008-01-18 17:26:03
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i know what ur going thru,.. im sort of in the same situation, but the emancipation laws in illinois basically say i have to get my parents consent if i want to emancipate myself, wtf?!,.. but yeah i think their different out their in cali, but i still think you have to prove to the courts that your finanically able to take care of yourself though
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Posted by yaboy
on 2008-01-20 21:29:27
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