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| Oh, me of little faith... |
This past week, I had the most challenging experience in the Lord.
I've never been faced with any physical ailments or problems, until I started having a problem with my left eye and wasn't seeing so well. I had a bunch of annoying little floaters and coke-bottled vision, and figured it couldn't be a good sign. So, I made an appointment with a small eye office nearby in hopes that maybe it was a normal situation.
I am a firm believer that when the Lord calls you to do something, He's not going to reneg on what He's already set in stone. And I was told that He'd be using me to write stories and songs. (I'm thinking, "how in the world am I going to do this if I can't see?!) Oh, ME of little faith....
So here I am in the dr.'s office, and he sees the floaters, but also notices something behind it that doesn't look normal to him. Here we are, again, at that point of no return- to which he replies, "I think I want to do an ultrasound...". So he gets out his little wand-pointer-thingy, runs it over my eyelid, and shows me some pictures. In what I saw and what he told me, I had a tear in my Retina and needed to have it repaired or I would go blind...GO BLIND?????? You've GOT to be kidding me?! But this is not supposed to happen to a 25 year old?! This is not supposed to happen to ME!?
I spent 4 days struggling in ways I've never had to before- praying, re-assessing my focus on the Lord's promises, reminding and being reminded of what His word says, and to just give the situation totally over to Him. (I'm a take charge kinda person, so for me to sit back and "not worry" or "have no thought" is very much a struggle.) While I had thoughts of going blind, surgery, etc., the only thing the Lord would say is "But what does my word say?"
Now that I think on it, maybe I should have gotten more into the word rather than into the thoughts I know Satan was pouring over me....bleh. So much for that idea now.
I made a decision to put my trust and faith in the Lord's promise- by His stripes, I am healed.
At that point, when I go into the dr.'s office, he will not find anything. I will have been healed by the time I get there.
So, I get an appointment to see an opthalmologist, and get there only to experience a pure 30 minutes of stress. Nothing but bright lights, weird looking metal gadgets, and the most dilated eyes I've ever had, to hear the most glorious words I'd prayed for all weekend- "There's nothing there; I can't find any tear." All I could say was PRAISE JESUS!!! I know what I saw on that ultrasound- without a doubt in my mind, I knew that I'd been healed.
I had only slight inflammation, for which they'd put me on some eye drops for about a month, but other than that, I was able to go back to doing everything I was doing before.
While I still have some floaters, I was told that the inflammation usually emphasizes them, so that the eyedrops would help.
I just wanted to share with everyone how amazing this situation turned out. From the worst to the best of experiences, I was tested in all this. I really think I'll do better next time around...
But for now, I'm just glad that the Lord was able to use me for His glory.
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Posted by selah916 on 2009-07-09 08:25:10 | Rating: | Views: 37
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