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Attention Whores...Attention, Whores

Gotta love 'em right? Everything they do is this large production. They have to pee, they have this planned out and rehearsed choreography and they won't go to the bathroom until everyone acknowledges the fact that they need to pee. They all...

When It Gets To Be To Much

What do you do? Run? Hide? Freak out?  I do it all....I panic.  My heart beats too fast and oh so loud, my stomach flips and hardens and makes me gag.  Everything blurs and goes crystal clear and then blurs again.  I feel numb, scared and cold.  I...

Dorian

This is a happier post. A few weeks ago, I was admitted into a mental health hospital for adolescents and adults. I was first in the outpatient program and had been there for about two months, and then got admitted inpatient. I remember my first...

Perfection in Progress

I see the light as it bounces her body as I get close to her naked flesh. I am her man. And I touch her softly. She groans for more. Her skin is hot with the desire for me and I can't resist the deliciousness of her presence. I want her to know at...

This is MY life.

Why didn't you go to school today ? babe, why don't yu leave it the FUCK alone. I think I know what I'm doin. I had a 4.5 in a private school I'm sure I fucking got this. Aren't you the one telling me always don't let people run over you don't let...

A Little Older, A Little Less of a Douche

To all of you who have had a blog for longer than four years, Have you ever gone back and reread your posts?  I just did and I feel like such an asshole. Granted, I was a kid (still am but much younger then), but still. Being patronizing,...

A letter to Maddison...

I strongly believe everything happens for a reason, and people cross paths with one another for a reason.  Whatever small and insignificant minute little itty bitty reason that may be in certain instances, I still believe there is one.   Sunday...

Floating on a cloud.

Pure ecstasy... Perfection.... Desire... Passion... Love... It's like my body's craving you...you're touch...you're kisses. I miss you all the time. When you're with me all I do is smile. I don't get butterflies, you give me the whole...

Looking Back

I'm nearing the end of my teenage years, I have only minutes left until I'm 20. And while I'm sitting here, fresh out of the shower, wrapped in blankets in my dorm room, I'm thinking of the life events that shaped me into the woman I am today. I am...