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Bitter.

This blog certainly isn't to winge and annoy my viewers (if I have any) but I think once in a while everyone needs to vent their feelings, and probably look back in heinsight and laugh at what they wrote, and how they felt at that moment.

Someone once told me that the world backs off when you make it back off. I'm at breaking point. Where I certainly need space and to tell people to back off. You just learn a lot about someone's personality when uncertainty hits and guidance is needed. People that you thought you were close with and that you could put trust into, leave you behind feeling just plain dissapointed. People that you thought, thought the same of you and never had you thought could doubt your friendship, certainly dissapoint you.

Back in school drama was all that happened. Girls dramatising everything and making a big deal over something that is insignificant. Well school is back in session everyone!! People make not only mistakes, but people make choices. Choices to turn their backs on you and leave you or choices to keep you close. My friends decided the easier option by turning their backs. I am a strong believer in Karma. Personally, when things go bad I wonder what I have done to deserve Karma. This time - I cannot think of anything. I believe I am a good person - so why do bad things happen to good people? If that's the way things go, then why bother being a good person to begin with?

Bitter. One word to explain how I feel at this point in time. I feel bitter about the way people deal with the selfish choices they make and I feel bitter dissapointment for those people. Don't get me wrong, I have a good life. I do, I have a family who is supportive, a job that pays well, a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food in my mouth and a man who loves me. I just think it's wrong how some people go about things, but I tell you what, I am not bitter at those people. Those people are the ones who have to deal with the choices they've made and I will not be there to watch the downfall.

This probably wouldn't make sense to many of you, but it helped me get a load off of my chest. Thanks.