I spend most days alone. I'm with people, but I'm very much alone. Part of me really likes that and parts of me think its really sad. I work 40 hours a week at a job that im okay with, I don't dread going anymore. I think I've found a safe middle ground with it. But my real passion is in writing and this novel I'm working on. I can see it full on in my head. I can see what I want it to be like, but actually putting it into words is one of the hardest things I've ever done. That and losing weight, I just really love food.

Today a friend and I went to go see this palm reader at the Mall of America. We had heard from some friends of my friend that the palm reader was really good. So we thought, for $10, why not? It's fun. Well, my future is that I will get married and have 3 children. I could never see myself ever having 3 kids. Maybe one when I'm 35 and feel my clock ticking. I'm also supposed to switch jobs and travel more with my job. I dont plan to quit any time soon, but it would be cool to travel for my job. Anyway I really hope this lady is right, except for marriage and children.

I'm just terrified of marriage. When i think of marriage i think i will never be able to leave my house again. but then again, i dont really anyway. But no big trips without the kids, ya know? I think i'm just paranoid, I'm sure its not that bad. I also hate doing what other people do. And other people get married.

In order to meet more people in the Twin Cities I decided to join a book club off of craigslist and yes, I'm sure some people might think that is creepy, but I'm pretty excited. It's Weds. and I really i hope i finish the book so I can go.

I missed the Shout Out Louds show last week because I didn't want to go alone. Although I really should have gone. Ah well, it's over and done with no point in regretting.

I should get back to reading. I'll be back.

P.S. I miss Chicago