I just realized this month marks the anniversary of one of my cousin's suicide, and next month marks the anniversary of another cousin who committed suicide. Okay, that is just one suicide too many. One cousin, we called "Iggy" because his Italian name is difficult to pronounce, and the other Frank. I can't believe how fast the years have flown.
Listen, if you are suicidal, don't do it. My family still feels the pain of those two deaths. Don't think your family is better off without you. Iggy's mother has never been the same since the day he committed suicide, and neither has Frank's mother. I remember both Iggy's wake and Frank's funeral. Their mothers couldn't stand up. Iggy's mother fainted, and she has woken up every day since hoping it was just one horrific nightmare. Iggy left a wife and a son behind. Iggy was only 30 when he hung himself. Frank left a wife and three kids behind. His wife got the phone call saying Frank jumped off a bridge. She aged 10 years hearing that. Someone witnessed the jump and immediately called 911. Leaving a legacy of suicide is no way to leave this earth.
If you believe no one will notice you if you're gone or that no one cares, you're lying to yourself and you're wrong. You don't see the pain it will cause your family because you're saturated in only the pain you feel and the circumstances you're in. Suicide is like a Tsunami. It will wipe your family out emotionally, spiritually, physically, and mentally.