Thoughts.com Blogs - FUCK COLLEGE ROUND TWO

But I'm not satisfied so I'll have no choice but to go back. I want my Master's Degree now. I still want to do the nursing program but for now I need something to keep my mind stimulated.

As much as I have despised to entire college process, I guess I do still love to learn. I feel purposeless when I am not learning. I have gotten several library books. Two of them I read in two days. The other two were super-boring and I put the down. I'll probably go back tomorrow and grab a few more. A few fiction novels, but a few non-fiction too, maybe I'll brush up on my Espanol

As of today nothing has changed with my status at EMU. I figured nothing was going to work out, that all of THEIR mistakes would not be corrected in time for me to apply for the nursing program, and I was right. So now I'm making other plans. Besides looking into a Master of Health Administration or Master of Human Services degree, I am also looking into U of Ms nursing program. I would need to take Pharmacology and Pathophysiology, but that is fine with me. I am interested in getting as many degrees as possible in my lifetime, not necessarily at EMU, preferably not at EMU, but no matter what, I like learning.

I like learning about other cultures and religions. I like learning languages. I want to learn Chinese and Arabic. I like learning how to cook new foods. I like to keep up on computer programs. So I'll probably be a lifelong student.

I suppose a shift in my views is necessary. Whatever I decide to do, this time I'm going to make sure it results in some sort of career. Today I was offered an interview for a fuckin housekeeping position. I am going to interview because I am damn desperate but that really blows my mind. I've applied for forty jobs already this month and the only call back I've gotten has been for a housekeeping position.

On the positive side, I have a new focus and am re-working my manuscript with a vengeance. I have dedicated myself to a chapter a day and I like the direction in which it is going. I'm hoping to have it ready for submission within a month. I have no plans to go through inuniverse, because obviously they don't care about anything other than the money or they wouldn't allow a book as the one previously discussed in my earlier posts to have come out so sloppily done.

Everyone has dreams and they should continue to chase them. I'm not giving up on the writing thing. Even if I am just featured in a magazine, or even if I am given the opportunity to be published, just having someone read my book and say it made a difference in their life would be reward enough. That is why I re-worked the book in the first place. I don't want it to seem like a pity party. I am truly trying to get people to GET IT.

So, I'll be doing my research on my educational and career options. I know things will fall into place, hopefully away from EMU. I don't understand how one school can fuck so much stuff up for so many people. I am definitely not a minority. Most EMU students have had at least ONE of my issues.

I watched the news awhile ago and was hoping for word that Kwame Kilpatrick was resigning as mayor of Detroit, but to no avail, and I was disappointed. I don't live in Detroit, but what happens in Michigan's largest city (or is it second to Grand Rapids??) affects the entire state. Detroiters deserve better representation with integrity and focus. If KK really loved the city he would step down so they could move forward. Instead, he still haughtily refuses to acknowledge his wrongdoings, instead choosing to do everything else including playing the overly used race card. Even other Black people such as myself can see he brought all this on himself.

He and Christine Beatty sat in the same courtroom and didn't even make eye contact with one another, which I found ironic considering they were both going against the marital vows they made before God and sleeping with each other not too long ago. I wonder if she even still talks to KK. He made a complete ass out of her. He was telling her everything she needed to hear to keep her up under him. Telling her he might be her children's stepfather one day, that he loved her, that she was going to be his wife one day, even though he was married. And she fell for it enough to allow her own marriage to crumble, and now she's alone and in the public eye negatively. I find it hard to feel sorry for her though, because that entire administration, including some of the cops, the chief of police, and all the rest, are just as crooked, and it's only a matter of time before EVERYTHING comes out (including what happened to Tamara Greene).

I also watched a news report that disgusted the hell out of me, about a 24-year-old woman who was attacked by a stranger for no good reason--with a pitcher of acid. Her face is completely melted. She has no eyelids, no nose, etc. She will never be able to see her daughter again. To this day, her attacker was never found. She saw the man's face but he was not familiar to her. So, this guy just felt like throwing a pitcher of acid on a total stranger.

We live in a scarily messed up world, for real. I'm tired of hearing about all these kids dying, I'm tired of diseases, I'm tired of gas prices (who isn't??) America has a lot of work to do, but so too does the rest of the world.