You'd be suprised. Most of the time you want what
you can't have and as soon as you REALLY get it, you
don't want it. I think you are REALLY pretty. I'm honestly
not just saying that. Everyone wants to be skinny. Hell, I
weigh a mere 115-120 pounds and I sometimes think "Hey, you're
fat!" But in all reality you have no idea. Being anorexic is
horrible.. it's good while you do it, but afterwards you see
how truelly miserable you were. You never have time for anyone
or anything. It truelly sucks.

If you ever need to talk, I'm always here.

LoverDearest

I hear you, I wish I could photo shop my body into perfection, and then look down and see the same thing.

Thats what I think some time, but after a while, I honestly stopped looking at myself. Yes, I looked in the mirror all the time, but I just stopped really obsessing with looking a certain way and just focused on this. It becomes your everything and that is so sad. I was really thin...I still am really thin, but its not about thin, its about that feeling or control and comfort in knowing you have power over something. You lose connection with your body. i didn't even see me anymore, but I just have to keep going.

wow go ahead and do it. i dont see why you guys wanna be skinny.

we want to be skinny because that is everyones interpretation of 'beautiful.' flubber and mush and squish and pudge and cellulite is not attractive. we want to fit into beautiful clothes and know that we are the belles of the ball, or whatever. bones are pretty. they show daintiness and femininity. the bones are graceful as the skin caresses their movement. the arms are long and wiry. its all about fantasy, really; fantasy, beauty, and vanity. everyone has all but forgotten health now, which is sad. we want to be models, we want to be angels, we want to be goddesses. and in the end we know in our hearts that we cannot be but that does not stop us from striving for that delicious perfection that so many of us crave and few can taste. we want heads to turn and jaws to drop. we want our pictures to be flawless and our confidence to soar. thin is just pretty. i myself am not pro ana, and i think anorexia is tragic, but i do admire the girls for their passion and courage to do something so drastic. either way, most of us won't make our goals, and if we do, the happiness won't last. but at least it is something to work for, something else to keep us going, that image of us as cinderella or on the cover of sports or even simply radiating wonderfulness at the supermarket. it gives us strength and hope and it helps us forget our problems. everyone who has ever taunted us or beaten us in a game or showed us up in school will be avenged by our beauty; at all costs we will be better than everyone else. thts why (:

i wish i could too btw. i wish i could just cut off my hips and my thighs and my arms and just get it over with :(