I feel really really bad. I mean, I have a place to live, that is well priced for Calgary, I have nice neibors, I have a lovely mom, and a dad, that while he isn't a major part of my life, he sends money regularly, and talks to me weekly on the phone, i have a pretty amazing older brother, and a horse, the one I have been waiting for for years and years. But then there are the girls, the ones that ride better than me, have better grades, their parents are together, they have boyfriends, and best friends. I mean, I wish I had a boyfriend that I could cuddle up to and tell secrets to and stay in bed all day and watch movies with. I wish I had a best friend that I had since forever, that I could hang out with all the time, that didn't turn around and hate me one day, then the next act like we were friends again. That I could tell secerets too, and not have to worry about them telling everyone behind my back. I wish I could be one of those kids that's good at everything they try, and don't have to study all the time to get good grades. I don't understand why some people can just come in, try something once, and be good at it. Go to class, not have to study, and ace the test. I really don't understand why I should be jealous, but I am. I mean, I know it's petty, and stupid, but I mean, I'm 16, I'm allowed to be petty and stupid sometimes, yes?