24334 Blog Feed: sacrificedangel 2008-06-17 07:06:56 sacrificedangel Your e-mail address 69921 2008-03-01 11:26:36 But I’m not as hard as a stone
I try to be right
Forgive me if I’m wrong

I like a change
But it’s hard to just jump in
I’ll to try to do it your way
Forgive me if I sin

I like a game
But I’m not always the best
I’ll try to play my hardest
Forgive me if I rest

I like to try to soar
But I don’t have wings
I’ll try to go the extra mile
Forgive me if I forget a few things

I like a challenge
But I’m not as hard as a stone
I like a change
But it’s hard to just jump in
I like a game
But I’m not always the best
I like to try to soar
But I don’t have wings

So Ultimately
That Leaves Me Here Waiting ]]> 67157 2008-02-22 10:40:34 ]]> 63705 2008-02-14 10:42:18 Whoever decided you were the one
To look down upon me

It’s your right
It’s your right
Yeah

I throw my hands up
I’m just ready scream

Put up my fight
Up my fight
Yeah

Cause

You are nothing
The world doesn’t spin just for you
You are nothing
So get up
Get up
And let go now to

I hate the way you laugh at me
Like everything’s going your way
I know your not living your dream
And you’re having a horrible day

So Get up
Get up
And let go now to
Cause your nothing
You’re nothing
You know it’s true

Just Scream
Just Scream
Cause it’s the way you do
So get up
Get up
Let go now to ]]> 60674 2008-02-07 22:58:56 You utter silence
In this timeless illusion
So do I

You feel my knife stab your heart
But you don’t withdrawal
You only shake helplessly
At the thought that I might go away

My leaving would kill you
Torment every muscle in your body
So you seek my anger
To try to mend what’s left of me

But come to find I am untouchable
You reached out for me
You called my name
But I was only in your imagination

A smile unseen
A voice unheard of
Its all in your head

You’ve awaken
Now rest, sweet angel

So I can be with you again

]]> E>X theme park? ha]]> 60595 2008-02-07 19:23:08 My friend and I were talking and just went off on this ramapge of ideas for a sex theme park =] (It was Jordan & I)

The rollarcoasters would have bigger seats, and they would be more gentle =] We figgured the back seet would be the funnest because you have the longest pause (but not to long) and hardest drop ! [[haha]]

We decided that we would have bumpercar sex because it would be sooo hard to concentrate and there is nothing like nudging other people that are also having sex!

Selling at the door: we would sell umberella hats at the door and raincoats because there is going to be ski lifts and who knows what kind of ideas young males get when they are 'getting the job done' and see people walking below them.

NO KIDS would be aloud. =]

A virtulal porn movie thing. (Wher eis three d and like your there!!)

Ohhh boy, it would be verrrryyyy interesting!
Got any more ideas for the Sex Theme park? Just comment them below!

]]> 60580 2008-02-07 18:38:01
...exactly why people think that love lasts forever. That no matter what, they will always have feelings for that one person.

Its the memories.

Sometimes I question..

...exactly what makes people think things might still work if they try one more time [[for the third of fourth time]]

Its the memories.

Sometimes I think about him

and the way I wish we could have made it. But theres no true reason behind it....except..

Its the memories

There is probably one person on your mind right now....

Its the memories

I guess all I am saying to everyone...is sometimes you have to let go. There's never a right time to say goodbye. Sometimes it just has to happen ♥ I challenge you to let go of that one person that keeps you from moving on and letting go of yourself. [[Live, Laugh, & Love]]

♥
Kayla Ann ]]> 60445 2008-02-07 12:43:16 We all thought Jordan was out of my life...well..

Jordan has called me a couple times and had me call hima couple times also. We have been writing eachother and he keeps telling me that he has matured and things are different. He said he finally understands why it was disrepsectful of him to be on the phone with another girl for more then an hour. But I even questioned him with this....If he has changed so much then why is he talking to me like that and telling me he still loves me and has changed if he has a girlfriend from where he lives? He told me it was because its me and I am an exception to anything. He said that I am just a different story....he asks me for advice about him and his girlfriend. I don't understand. What does he want from me, seriously? and Has he changed? ]]> 53788 2008-01-23 00:04:27 No explicit content.
Damnit.

<img src="http://a874.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/110/l_c49811789762cfa7ae0ac2fd8aed9331.gif">

I edit things.
My speach being one.
Starting now?
Psch.
Prolly not.

Night =]
Kayla Ann ]]> 51841 2008-01-18 15:49:08 My Medicated Sickness

His poisonous lips mingled with mine of
sweet surrender. It was a tragic accident.
I hadn’t meant to overdose him. A
tear of evil’s pleasure tasted of bitter
innocence. I pressed my lips against his
fluttering light pink eyelid while his hand
went limp in mine.

“Let me kiss your delicate eyelashes my
medicated sickness.”
]]> 51836 2008-01-18 15:43:02 Alright.
SO Its a rather funny story actually.

When Tami was at my house she decided she wanted her tounge pierced..So I took her and her parents eventualy found out but we didn't let them know she got it done when she was with me or we wouldn't be able to hang out any more......but...
I have had mine pierced for a while...
and I am staying at her house tonight.
And I can't get the ball unscrewed...
And I REALLY can't afford for her parents to see it because they will know her getting hers done has SOMETHING to do with me.
i'll keep quiete i suppose.

peace and love
kayla ann ]]> 51004 2008-01-16 23:22:05 Had to do interview / article for newspaper for school. what do you think?

A Casual Dress Casual Anything Business
Written by: Kayla A. DeLong

Inspiring 29 year-old Erin Schmidt and 29 year-old Dan Bruce take their customers on a rather intriguing adventure when they step inside the newly named Epic Tattoo, formally known as Big River Tattoo. After getting their new name established they intend to move their location to a better part of Davenport, said Schmidt, “We intend to enlarge and incorporate our business but it’ll take time. The question isn’t what to do, it is when we can afford to do it.”
Throughout the years this business has been successful and worth the time and money put into it. In the early 2000’s Schmidt won a series of trophies at conventions he attended regularly. One of his favorite tattoo artists at these was Bob Tyro. “He had a huge influence on tattooing,” said Schmidt.
“There are a lot of bad tattoo shops out there,” said Schmidt. “In Davenport alone there are about 60 tattoo artists and very few of them would I recommend to anyone.” He has high expectations and would raise the standards and regulations if he could change one thing about the tattoo industry.
Bruce and Schmidt were introduced to the tattoo and piercing industry out of general interest and designing tattoos for a company before they decided to open their own business. “When we first opened I was nervous to make a mistake on my customers because of the permanence of a tattoo because it’s better seen than anything else,” said Schmidt. “Before we started on our customers, though, I was piercing and tattooing myself and having trustworthy friends always helps.”
On an average day Bruce and Schmidt get through two or three tattoos a day and five piercings by walk-ins. “On a busy day, which happens about once a year, I can do up to fifty or sixty piercings,” said Bruce. Generally, they have more walk-in customers for piercings than they do tattoos. When the customers do come in for piercings the artists have a “strict three strikes and your out rule.” If after three attempts to pierce the customer, if the customer won’t cooperate, then the artist assures the customer that this was his or her choice and “They let us do it or not, otherwise we just deny doing it,” said Schmidt.
Eighty percent of the people who do come in are females. The most common age for people coming for tattoos 21 or twenty two and the most common age for piercings is about 17. There are no Iowa laws suggesting people have to be of a certain age to get a piercing. However, the law requires people to be 18 or have parental consent to get a tattoo.
Bruce described the work atmosphere as a, “Casual dress, casual anything business.” Depending on the day and how busy they are, things can become hectic or high strung. “The best experiences we have generally happen when the customer forms a trust with the artist so we can use our artistic freedom,” said Schmidt, “There aren’t a lot of artistic jobs out there that give you that and this one pays great. When I was a little kid I wanted to be an architect but wound up doing this.”
]]> 50756 2008-01-16 10:41:06 I can't wait until next year.
My friend Tami is moving in with me because she turns 18.
We'll get to be together for senior year!.
Not only be together, but live together.
& IN my opinion. This is going to be. Completely. Amazing.

Her parents are really pretty strict. Like, she gets grounded for burping. Which is completely and totally ridiculous. (Though I think I just spelled that wrong) And one of her punishments once was to look into her stepfathers eyes for five minutes. Can you say, CREEPY? LoL. Yah, Just had to get this out of my system somewhere because its going to be great but its nine monthes away..SO I am hoping that this nine monthes goes a lot faster then we expected it to. Oct. 8th of this year is the day!

Hopefully we don't end up fighting like all the time.
I don't want to get sick of her.
LoL.
Excited.

Talk to you later I guess.
Peace & Love
Kayla Ann

]]> 50720 2008-01-16 08:38:24 Is the view you all are seeing different from the mirror im viewing?

People tell me, that I talk like I am older and wiser then my age. But what I lack to understand is I make horrible choices to this day. I am only 16. I have had sex with two people, I have smoked, I drink (A LOT) and I have even tried drugs before. Looking back at everything I have done, I am not proud of it all and all I really see is a regular teenage girl trying to break away from home and form her own idenity. But when you all see me here, its like you think im actually, well you know....Okay. People say I am mature. I don't lack this. Infact, I feel like I can be a mature person. But lately everyone around me only sees the bad. But I am fixing myself. I have a friend who is EXTREMELY mature..and sometimes I wish I was just like her. My parents admire her so much in fact, when she is 18 they are going to allow her to move in with us so that she can get away from her home life. I know that for myself I can make the right dicisions. Infact, I do sometimes. But usually over break and things is when I really begin to mess up. Over Christmas break I was wasted for more then six days in a row, and I will be the first to admit I had the time of my life...But on the contrary I will also be the first to admit that it was probably a huge mistake on my behalf. Since then I haven't touched a drink or smoked pot...I have still been smoking cigs but I guess that isn't horrible. I really should stop. But it seems like every day just isn't the right day to better myself which is probably most due to hormones at my age. I NEED to find a job. My father is really disappointed in me because he doesn't think I am trying hard enough to find one. I agree. Tonight I am going to fill out like three applications and hopefully show him that I really DO WANT TO GET A JOB. Ugh, time is just a factor. And procrastination seems to be an enemy resting at heart. SO I guess I have messed up a lot. I guess I do give my parents a reason to worry, but when it comes right down to it...I don't party WAY to much. Just occasionally, which isn't that bad. But, I need to go write my article for the paper for Journalistic writing...I'll post it in here when I am finished.

And thank everyone who already left me a comment. =] I enjoy your guys adivce and help.

Peace & Love
Kayla Ann <3 ]]> 50500 2008-01-15 19:54:52 Yet I find myself still here
Making love to you again

Do I cause unnecessary disturbance
With my limitless appetite
Fulfilling your every desire
My lips pressed on yours tight

Disguising my vulnerability
I push you away
Making the same mistake repeatedly
I let my heart stay

Little more
Then a deep infatuation
Little less
Then an admired imitation

I’m shielded from reality
Never less then perfect
I hide my insanity
Just so that you think im worth it

Prevent the unwanted
By withering away
I want you to leave
Forgive me if I stay

I’m hungry
For more then what this is
I’m a troublesome child
With blood red lips

Your fuel for anger
Is when I leave you now
A slap to the cheek
You might not ever let down

Burn the picture in the frame
Yet I find myself still here
Making love to you again

]]> 49346 2008-01-13 13:20:31 Obviouisly,
We ALL KNOW.
I want to just casually date people right now.
--YOu know. No strings attatched sort of thing--

Shit.
Strings are forming.
Kind Of.

Alright so I am having a problem. I want to just casually go on dates with people right now. I am NOT looking for a serious relationship [[At all, might I add]] I guess I am just not in the mood for the drama/ good day/ bad day things right now. When I am single I am never disapointed or upset because my significant other did blahblahblah...but anyways, to get back onto the purpose of me writing this. I have a dilema.

Two weeks ago I made out with my ex of two years: JOSH
A week ago I made out with his ex best friend: NATHAN

Josh= an okay person, but really wants to have sex with anyone who is willing which gets extremely annoying. Oh but he also seem slike he will be sucessful.

Nathan= drug addict, drug dealer, but a really nice person...I can do a lot better then this..Hence why when he asked me out like four times so far I have told him no, but the mistake I made was making out with him.

Matt= Becky had a ahold of his number and ruined that whole thing. Can't stand her. Moving on because thats adifferent subject.

Anyways, this whole casual dating thing is great until you start to realize you end up getting feelings for people you don't want to. IGNORING MY BETTER JUDGEMENT. And I don't really want any old feelings to come up from JOSH. that would be bad. very very bad. Though I think this whole Nathan and I think is making Josh extremely jealous. They both had to stay the night at my house last weekend when a party got crashed. And damn, was that ackward, I cuddled with Nathan all night (nothing else) and I think that pissed Josh off. Hmm.. I don't even know why im writing this because Im not getting anything out of it except how im feeling. but yah. Nathan is moving anyways. So I guess it doesnt matter. and josh is joining the navy so that doesn't matter. Maybe I am problem free? haha. Good Luck TO Me. I don't know why im writing so later

peace & Love

Kayla Ann

]]> 48197 2008-01-10 09:43:25 Haha Get the Humor In this.

You know how I dated Jordan and he got kicked out and had to move to Tenn with his family, right? Well...Turns out I was getting along REALLY well with this guy named Nathan and we were conimplating dating and he just got kicked out and ooooooh boy, guess where he's going!!!! TENN! He has family down there to. THis is just crazy and not cool at all.

Im Sad.
Life WIll go on though.

PEACE & LOVE

Kayla ANn ]]> 43660 2007-12-31 11:55:32 I Never Lost Myself
Hate when people say that

The thing is....

I just found you.

And you Fucking ruined Everything
--something people seem to lack of understanding

Its your fault, yeah
So take the blame the way you took my breath away.

--Because Im the perfect Girl.--
And you were my distraction.

Stupid Boy

L e t i t g o.
It's over

Your D.e.a.d
&
G.o.n.e

Stay there.
Come closer at your own risk.

--I'll win this time

Forget about everything I'm proud you did

Reversal is a bitch

& The way you rehersed before you took me in.

Tempting as it is to stay

Im going to just Run Away ]]> 43374 2007-12-30 18:30:58 I didn't get a chance to read your guys advice.
We slept together.
Obviously.
Or this wouldn't be continued.

I am still confused though. But thanks for all of the advice...I really appriciate it. The night before last night was when we slept together, then last night we went to a party togetehr, and it was wayyyyy strange because my friend amanda was all over Josh and I. Ugh, Yuck. Everytime Josh and I would just be doing something like playing videogames or anything she was there. She tried kissing me and she was all up on josh. Turned out we all slept in a twin size bed. (Amanda, Josh & I) which pissed me off, because I even insisted to BOTH of them I want to sleep alone...Why would I want to sleep in Joshes arms if its just sex? I was in the middle of explaining to him why we can't kiss unless we are having sex when Amanda came back in the room..because he still kisses me every chance he gets, and holds my hand...and I fell asleep in his arms last night....Don't get me wrong, he tried to be sexual. But I REFUSED to do that in one of my best friends beds....I couldn't do that to her, and besides even if I could she would never let me live that one down! And you want to know the MOST confusing part of this whole thing? Yesterday when I was trying to explain to him that we have 'rules' to follow..like the whole we can't kiss or anything unless we are having sex, he kept asking why, and telling me he doesn't care about the rules...and I told him It Matters To Me.Because truly that is going to be the line between just sex, and me falling for him all over again. (We dated for two years before this began) Well, when he said this, I kept turning my face away when he tried kissing me, and for some reason... A tear memorized the curves of my face...and everything seemed like old times..But I quickly brushed it away, and turned away from him & said I was getting really tired. Its funny how your really not sure what you want...I don't think either of us are absolutely positive. He likes someone. I kind of like someone. SO WHY US? Why doesn't he get, just friends with benefits really is okay for me? &&SIgh...I was going to tell him I was scared of falling for him all over again, but I can't. NO, I simply won't. He can't win this time. This is my game to play, right? He is suppose to fall back in love with me and realize what he lost? ~or was that never really the purpose?~ Okay, that isn't the point of this whole thing. Sex. Thats it. So whats wrong with me exactly? --And a better question. Whats wrong with him?

Thanks to anyone who leaves me yet more advice.....Guess im pretty confused right now.

Peace & Love

Kayla Ann

]]> 42593 2007-12-28 15:37:58 Alright, So you know how I said I might just hook up with josh? Plain sex. Thats it.

Well I was completely okay with that and all but now that we are in the same house..Its REALLY confusing..He keeps trying to hold my hand and stuff, and we haven't even had sex yet or anything...and its confusing me because I keep telling him to stop, but he won't and he keeps trying to kiss me and stuff...I keep telling him, we can't do that..and he finally told me he understands I just want this to be friends with benefits and nothing more, but then he continues to do it! WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? Then he told me himself thats all he wants....

Confused & depsperate for an answer,

Thanks to whoever leaves me some advice..

Peace & Love ]]> 40371 2007-12-21 17:17:22 I finally met someone who will treat me right (I think)

So..That guy Matt, I went to the movies with two weeks ago asked me out on another date which makes me really happy because he seems like a great guy and seems like he could be a good influence on me to. He's taking me to Red Lobster (Even though I don't like sea food --he doesn't know that) and a movie. I'm just going to order a salad with shrimp in it and force down the shrimp. Who knows, maybe I'll like it considering I haven't tried it in years. This is great though. He's picking me up, paying (classic dinner and a movie). OOH, its just so exciting. I'm kind of nervous though because at dinner obviously you actually get to talk and things. So it should be exciting (and not to mention expensive) Maybe thats what I need right now. Someone who will spoil me and treat me like I deserve. (Not being stuck up, its just no one ever did these sweet things for me before) He want's to be a police officer and we are only casually dating right now. The funny thing is that I promised myself I would never date a police officer. (ruined that one fast, though we are technically 'dating. We are going on dates.) Is there much of a difference? My gay friend Tate told me its the same thing and was lecturing me about how theres really no difference, but I see a huge difference so I guess I don't really know where he gets that from, lol. What do you guys think? Is going on dates the same thing as 'dating'? Hmm..Just get back to me and let me know what you think.

Peace & Love.
UGH. Wish me luck.

Kayla Ann

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