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...I guess she wasn't really the best huh?

I've been holding this in for quite a while...but i think it needs to be said...She has a diary on another site...and it finally pushed me over the edge when I read hers...

We've been friends for a really long time...it's just...gotten hard...she doesn't have kids...she doesn't understand...she doesn't have a boyfriend, or a man in her life...and we just grew apart...but I don't know why...her "new best friend" has a kid...and a husban...it just doesn't seem fair...

We just go about life as if nothing has changed...we talk almost daily...but, there's no meaning in what we talk about...we talk about what happened in class, what's going on in the news...what's going on in our "outside" lives...but nothing is mentioned of the past...nothing is mentioned of what really happens when we go home at night....and if she were a true friend she would see that I'm hurting...and she'd be so ashamed of me for not leaving the relationship I'm in...but part of the bliss of not being "friends" is not having to hear that.

I hear constantly how tired she is...because she had to work last night...blah blah blah...but so what? I go to school the same number of hours as her...I work when I get out of school too....AND I go home to a 2 year old son...who's still awake when I get home, and I feed him dinner, and I put him to bed...while his dad plays playstation or watches ESPN! AND I have to get up 2+ hours earlier than her...because I have to get myself ready, make breakfast for my child, and pack his bags...and then pack my bags...get my child dressed, take him to the sitter, and then make my 1/2 hour trek to school! I don't think people like her should be allowed to complain! It's not my fault she can't say no...that she can't go home and go to bed...I honestly can't just go home and take a nap whenever I want...

Sorry...just meaningless babbleing...