my x is still tormenting me...psychologically...mentally...emotionally... i don't know when he'll ever get it into his thick head that i no longer love him, no longer want to be with him... and that it's nobody's fault but his...and his alone...

he's still saying stuff about me...threatening me...all in the name of love.

is that love? is that what love really is? not wanting me to be happy... not wanting me to be free to live the life i choose, the life i want... i only have one life, so let me live it the way i want to.

it hurts...and i suppose that is what he wants...for me to feel this pain, this torturing pain...

i had to change my number...i had to delete some people from my online life...all because of him...

i really don't know when all this would be over... i just pray that it'll be over soon... but then again, soon can be a pretty long time... *sigh*

on a lighter note - my new life... my new love... despite all that, i love my new life... the person that i am currently in love with...the one thing that is keeping my sanity intact...my love for my boo... gosh... i'm missing my boo so much. never thought long distance relationship could hurt this much...but this is a beautiful kind of hurting...of missing someone so much, of loving someone so much... i would do anything for my boo, i would go through anything for my boo...