so todays the day that laura texts me once a month, i know that i said in a previous entry that i wont wait but she owes me this. to be honest if she doesnt  text me, it doesnt matter. but if she breaks this promise i will be disappointed. but still it doesnt bother me.
I cant help but wonder what happened ith me a couple of days ago i was obssessing over her, but now I know that i cant give into the pain. I am better finding  a new girlfriend and getting on with my life.

I aim by the end of the month to have  a new girlfriend who respects me.