So yesterday Mrs clever Thought that she would Buy a card and pop it in the post box. How clever she was i mean lets post a card and make laura hate me even more, if thats possible. i am just waiting for her to text me.
I dont want to feel like this anymore. all i want is normality in myself but i have never fitted the normal page of life. This life has been so hard i dont want to go through this torture anymore. I dont want to hurt her, I dont want to hate her but i know deep inside There will be never anyone else.

i asked AA Micheal for a sign that we was meant to be together and i recieved it, by a feather in my bed but it still hurts.

I would like to end this with the lryics of my favorite song of the day

Everything Burns (Ben Moody ft. Anastacia) lyrics

[ANASTACIA]
She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself,
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages,
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing

[CHORUS: Ben Moody / Anastacia]
'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
'Till everything burns

[ANASTACIA]
Ooh, oh

[BEN MOODY]
Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

[CHORUS: Ben Moody / Anastacia]
'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
Burn it all down
As my anger reigns

[BEN MOODY / ANASTACIA]
'Till everything burns
Everything burns
(Everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
(All fade away)
Everyone screams
Everyone screams..
(Watching it all fade away)
Oooh, ooh..
(While everyone screams)
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
(All of this hate)
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away
(Oooh, ooh)
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away...