Thoughts.com

• Hung out with my children after class. OMG HCHS invasion of HC~
Like...*Ana* hanging out with my son, and having him and Dorian and Zarek follow me to get food
"KinkyJews? That's *awesome* xD omg, someone needs to make kosher condoms!"
"Condoms can't be kosher dumbass, they're *synthetic*"
"You know, there are lambskin condoms...*those* could be kosher xD"
"OMG YOU SHOULD TOTALLY MAKE THOSE"
"Yeah, she'd totally corner the market on the like..5 jews allergic to latex -_-;"
...and then we decided Zarek should study for econ using my lambskin condom "business" as examples xD
I am so gratified by the strong high school presence here. I love my children
• One of my bosses thinks I am the cutest thing ever and is confused as to how I could ever threaten a person's masculinity ^^v Hurrays! Assimilating Japanese cute girl culture is paying off xD
• Dropped by the Brookdale Halloween Party momentarily ...but it was loud and I was tired.
• I suppose I *should* study for Milton....?

"And I told her I was 16 and in high school, and she was like '....' because I'm like the smartest person in the class, MWAHAHHAHAAA I AM A GENIUS"
"Well duh, Zarek, we're at a CUNY, we're *all* geniuses here >_>;;;"

• Susan is not pleased with my Antony-esque unnoble swerving. ...the feeling is mutual T_T
• I think I've lost direction. wtf i blame CUNY even though it's my fault
• Diana's gramma actually really likes me ~sparklesparkle~
• There's a girl named Kate at my job who's from HCHS '98 and Freak Hall. Fucking Cool.
I really need to get crackin on the Freak Hall History I said I'd do
• One of my students thanked me because I "make [her] think"
• "Would you rather be adored or be thought-provoking?"
gaahh, i'd rather be thought-provoking, but ...look at Socrates and Jesus! They provoked so much thought they got smushed -_-;;
• I want to provoke so much thought that people stop being losers and appreciate me.
• Travel Freak Hall Dinners = Yum
• Reading the first few chapters of Genesis last night. "It is not good for the man to be alone" (2:18)
• Mr Randolph and Weily totally made my night: "...and that's how John asked Christina to the prom"
now, whether this is true of not, i shall have to verify ^^v

damatte'ru to chigire-sou dakara, konna kimochi
hankei san ME-TORU inai no sekai de motto
motto hittsuitetai no sa

But if I keep them in, such feelings will tear me apart.
I want to get closer and closer [to you]
in a world that's no more than 3 meters away from you.

I visited the high school Monday after not sleeping at all that night
• Complained about what a giant asshole Schiappa was to security
and had a student and his *mother* agree with me.
• CAITLIN AND HALLIE
• Had my head scratched and petted by Shirley for like...an hour
omg i was meant to be a lap cat for serious! meow ...Shirley I love you; you made my day
• Bad Erotica Storytime with David ...as we all sat around like kindergarteners
• David and Donald LOOMED over me wtf they're 6.5 feet tall -__-;
• LillIAN is *beautiful*. omg T_T
• Finally met my boss's son who scarily reminds me of her but is so hchs xD
• OMG MS REIFER BASICALLY OFFERED ME A JOB
granted, the only sure thing was to put me on the sub roster, but she has intimated I could possibly have Mr SanGermano's job because he was classing up...OMG, I would *die* of happiness

As one may guess, I spent the rest of the day being *insanely* happy, despite Japanese being typically demoralizing and falling over during work from exhaustion. HCHS
I am so excited to one day not be surrounded by mediocrity fail is contagious!!!

No real sleep last night either, excpet for minor pass-outage.
Actually managed to do well on the Italian quiz ...we'll see how my Woolworth Building paper goes
My room always tries to eat my proteges >_>;;

And now I am going to pass out for a very long time

bokura ga sugoshita seishun no hibi wo nande hakareru no?
fubuki ni mo nita gekidou no ima hitomi tojinaide mitsumeteite
doko made mo shiroi yuki no you na anata ni furu yume no tsubute
koe wo todokete yo itsu mo no you ni sore dake de kyori sae koeru

How could you measure the depth of the bloom of youth we spent together?
in this violent moment so much like a snowstorm don't close your eyes, keep looking
just like the white snow falling far as the eye can see the pebbles of dreams that fall on you
call out to me just like you always did with just that we can surpass this distance

Crazycrazycrazy Auntie Val.

Return of the work ethic = less sleep. No prob Bob.
though, tonight was more interesting bonding with hihogosha ni ban chan than anything >_>;
And Auntie Val cannot help the macchinations of her mind T_T
Getting in touch with high school through old music & my old writings.
The roles people play in my life are always the same. Or, usually are.
it's just that the people who play them change every now and then. Sometimes even eerily so.

( A_Shift_in_Character )

Listening to the Gravitation soundtrack reminds me about all the things about high school that dont exist anymore. In a few hours I'll be at the high school breathing that oh so sweet diseased air and being hugged by my children and trying not to molest the young men *too* hard.
For me, that was my reality.
And I haven't found one yet that is able to take its place.

furueru yubi de yume o kasaneru iki mo dekizu ni kuzureteku
tashika na koto futashika sugite nani o shinjireba kimi ni aeru
shiroku kieteku ano hi no SHIRUETTO

With a trembling finger, I gather up the dreams; without even breathing on them, they're crumbling.
Even the certain things are too unreliable; if I believe in something, can I be with you again?
It's whitely vanishing, the silhouette of that day.