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How do I say good bye?

I have to do it.  I have to leave him.  I have to turn away from him when I told him I loved him.  And I did.  But not enough to be lied to and betrayed.  Not enough to not trust the one I love with my heart.  Not enough to hang on to something that isn't good for me.  Not enought to hurt over something so new when we should still be on cloud nine.  I've hit the ground hard and I'm brused.  We had a few moments in the sun, but the rays didn't last.  His heart is dark and chained and unreachable.  His heart has been betrayed in the worst ways but he clings to the pain.  The pain is his constant.  The pain is his familiar.  The pain is stronger than my love for him so I must leave.  But how to do you say goodbye to someone you love.  Your goal is to stay happy, not invite pain.  Not deal with pain that is unessasary.  Not to put up with anything that doesn't fit in a normal relationship, whatever that is.

So I must say good bye...I don't know how, but I will.  This is not the one.  He is not the one.   Not for me anyways...

So good bye sweet love.  I wish you the best.  I wish you find the strength to give to someone what you couldn't give to me.  I wish you happiness and I wish you love.  True love.  Not one that trys to change you but can actually accept you for you. 

It's not me.

Posted by rocknrollprey on 2008-01-14 10:34:04 | Rating: n/a | Views: 54


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Posted by
Mamacita925
on 2008-01-14 10:44:26
 
I wish you luck, that's never easy.
 
 

Posted by
chebtastic1
on 2008-01-14 11:17:48
 
Hun, I know exactly what you mean. I loved my husband but never felt in love. He was always so miserable even though in perspective his life wasn't that bad. He had both parents, a wife, a family, a job and a roof over his head. His mood was dragging me down too and I had to leave in the end. It was tough because he never did anything specific I could say was my reason for going - it was more what he DIDN'T do. I just couldn't get him motivated to enjoy life, and so I wasn't able to enjoy mine. It was the hardest thing I've ever done but without doubt the right thing. Sometimes, you just have to be a little bit selfish, it's the only way. What good does it do for both of you to be unhappy? I blame myself entirely because I knew I wasn't right for him (or he for me) and I still married him. Although it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do, I firmly believe I did the right thing because now I am with the person who is right for me, and he is free to find his soulmate too. And like you said...that's not me. If you are unhappy, or sure you cannot salvage it...then you are doing the right thing. I wish you the best of luck also and wish you strength and happiness. Believe me, it will be a huge relief to let go, and eventually...he will see it that way too. Peace and love to you xxx
 
 


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