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they have such a control over you. only once and they will chain you to the ground. there seems to be no way out. all t hat goes threw ur mind is how the hell am i going to get high today. no money in your pocket what do you do? you beg and pleed to get some time of cash in your pocket. till one day you realized you popped 5 concertas and snorted 2 hydros and 2 512 oxycodones and all your hopes of living go down the drain. you open your eyes and your suprised your still breathing. your heart feels like its going to explode. your whole body becomes numb and all you keep telling yourself is you wanted to die but not like this. and all you keep repeating is im gunna stop. im going to rehab. im not ready to die. you try and sleep but your to afraid too. stay up all night. next day you go sober and say no im gunna stop im gunna change. what a lie that was. the day after that your poppin concertas and vikes all over again. the control they have on you. the pain you endure to wake up every morning. undescribable. this is not the life I wanted.

Posted by rizzaph on 2008-12-04 15:39:41 | Rating:

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It's weird, but I completely understand what you're saying.

Posted by roxilemans on 2008-12-04 15:43:24

wow... i understand where your coming from and i'm sorry.

Posted by haydnbrianne on 2008-12-04 15:45:33

Well that is defiently not the life that anybody wants and I understand that you want a better life but I mean you wont get a better life unless you make it a better life and what u are doing with pills and everything I mean then it isn't somebody elses fault that your life is like the way it is I mean the only person that can change it is you......

Maybe you should think about what you do and how you act and see maybe if people like the way that you are and I guess that if they like you high all of the time then I mean you dont have to quit but I mean the only people that would say that they like you when you are high would be either retarded people or other people that are high.....

So I mean I am saying that I dont like you like this and so I mean that is my opinion but I mean I dont get high everyday and pop pills like you and so I mean I have no idea what it feels like and I mean so yeah maybe you should just stop and then you wouldn't have to sit there and think about how much you want your life to change back because I mean I wish I could help you but sadly I can't SO SORRY!!!!
~BeThAnY~

Posted by cfcolts59 on 2008-12-22 22:32:45