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I think I'm finally coming to grips with the situation at hand. I can't guarentee that I'll be okay with it tomorrow, but right now I'm fine. If he does text me tonight (he won't) that's okay. Althought I'd be pretty happy if he sent me something, even if it was just a little "Hey, goodnight!"
I don't know how someone I've only known for four months, someone I barely know, can inflict such strong emotions in me. Not hearing from him can ruin my day and just hearing his voice can make me smile. Knowing that he was there for me gave me such a happy feeling... but is he still there for me? I don't even know anymore.
And yeah, I don't know him very well... But I want to. I know surface stuff, like his favorite color, but I want to know more. I want to know what goes on inside his head, even the totally random things interest me. Some people majorly bore me talking about their lives, but not him. I want to get to where I truly know him... and he truly knows me.
It's gonna be hard, but I think maybe holding off on the physical stuff for a while might be a good idea (Not that I even know the physical stuff is even an option anymore, but if I get the chance...) I still want to hang out with him, but maybe instead of making out, we should just talk and take things slow. I can't say I really want to do the painful "taking it slow" thing again, I still really want to kiss him and what not, but it may be getting in the way of getting to know each other. And how can I fall in love with someone I don't even know?
So maybe I won't end up falling in love with him, thats kind of a cheezy, far off idea, but hey... any chance at love is worth it for me. I've finally found someone that I think is worth holding on to and that doesn't happen to me often. I'm not ready to let go... not just yet anyways.
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Posted by redhead_chick on 2007-12-17 23:26:04 | Rating: | Views: 37
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