sometimes it feels really strange reading what i wrote a little while ago. just because i write stuff down when im emotional so when i read it im like damn was it my time of the month or something? Im reading the book the perks of being a wallflower i swear to god it makes me want to cry like each paragraph.  the narator in the book makes a big deal about the song asleep i just looked it up its really good. He talks about how he wounders how many peopel have gotten through things because of songs like this. maybe my mind is playing devils advocate but sometimes i feel deppressing songs make you even more deppressed, and happy songs can make you more happy.  I dont want to be the cliche teenage girl, but i know some popular songs have gotten me through some tough time.  Who can feel deppressed when a song about gettin low and having boots with fur is playing. My Dad is continueing to try and spend more time with me.  I guess he is starting to regret when we didnt. Unforntionatly even though it would be nice to have a closer relationship with my dad when we try to hang out, sometimes it just feels like a lost cause. trying to gain something we lost along time ago. (thats going to be one of the things i look back on, and ill regret that i wrote it).