Thoughts.com Blogs - Tech tech tech tech...TECHAAAAA! O.O

     Yeah...i've found that the only thing that can make the endless world of spinning thoughts in my head go away is Tech. It just takes out everything else from my head and *splat* Zach is getting hit in the balls, or smacked on the ass. Jerry is getting revenge on zach, Zach is getting revenge on Corey, and Corey is being random with his ball tapping. I swear to god none of these men are going to have children if this keeps up lol.
     Tech is where We build a set for the school play/plays. we go to competition and try to win. Right now the set is a huge stage on casters that we built out of 2x4 wood and OSB board. HEAVY SHIT. We made Six 4'x8' platformas and screwed them all together to form a giant stage on wheels... so all in all the stage is about 16'x12'...and we have only about 5 people to move it in a circular motion, up down across and around stage.this thing is a beast.jesus christ man....it's a workout and a half.

Now about my Mike problem:
     mmk so, i made up my mind and decided to break up with him right? MADE UP MY MIND MY ASS! WTF man? im so bad at this...just when i think i know what the hell im doing i change and everything was the wrong decision. I dont know if im just being hasty with this or what but...man...i just miss the hell out of him right now. He was my best friend...he still is...but i like him more then that. And it's pretty clear that he still "loves" me as he says. I dunno if i believe we know what love even is but, i miss him. sure if we did get back together a lot would have to change, like not saying "i love you" constantly, not clinging every waking moment, stopping the sexuual activity, and just being more friend-like. I mean i want a friend, but a friend who i can kiss and hug and hold his hand. And someone i can hang out with whenever. I miss that you know? Just lean on his shoulder whenever i felt like i needed it...hold his hand when we're walking down the halls...and just say goodbye and goodnight to him on the phone every night. He is also my best friend...i can tell him anything that i can't tell anyone else. He listens and sometimes gets what im saying and sometimes doesn't but we always end up making each other laugh about something or another. I'm still wanting to take a break but maybe not BREAKING UP. I still care about him more then i care about just a friend. I would say i love him...but im not sure if this is what that is.i just don't think we should be saying that yet. At least not so often. Not every other sentence.
If all of the things that i think ultimately tore us apart were changed...then i think things would be mostly perfect.