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Remember the song Flood by Jars of Clay? I love how there's suddenly strings. Also listening to Deep Forest's Sweet Lullabye. I used to listen to that back in '94 when it first came out, I played it every night before I went to sleep. I still want to listen to it over and over again.
Really strange being back in Lawson today. Saw a picture of myself as a kid, standing in the back of the pickup with my sister, holding a fishing pole. My grandpa standing there, and the fishing basket behind us. I wonder what kind of childhood my kids are going to remember. My whole world when I was young was playing outside, being on the farm, fishing, checking on the cows, baby kittens. Building forts and riding horses. I didn't live in a town until I was in 7th grade, so I'm trying to imagine what it's like to be a kid in the city, the yard seems so small compared to the fields, the world seems a little more contained...I miss riding horses...and yet there's no way I ever want to move back to the country. A little of my heart stays there, though. It was good to see my dad looking happy and my grandma seemed to be good also. I'm relieved that the Christmas thing is finally over, it's so, whoa, especially with that side of the family. And when I'm there I feel this unending sense of distance between then and now, this weird feeling of disbelief that this is really my life. Can't explain it, I guess.
I'm off to do yoga.
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Posted by randomname on 2008-01-13 22:22:22 | Rating: | Views: 78
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