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Lessons on being Real

Hi My love!!!
I really look forward to seeing you again and catching up with your life. Last night, I was talking to my friend Emily on the phone (I am going to see her funk band perform tonight and am so excited!!) and she has such a beautiful voice, and I told her how I love that she says the word "wonderful" all the time. Then she told me that she thinks she does it because I say the word wonderful a lot and she thinks it is such a beautiful and descriptive word. Then she went on to tell me how I have affected how she perceives things!! It was such a magical moment because until that conversation, I never realized I had such a profound effect on her, and I actually really admire and look up to her. Mutual role models perhaps?
It is funny how I see myself, and I guess how everyone sees themselves. It is hard to imagine myself affecting someone's life the way that many other people have affected my life, but on the other hand it only makes sense that that would happen.
Right now I am learning (among other things) how to be real on a daily basis. It is a wonderful experience, I just acknowledge when I am lying to myself or trying to convince myself of things. You know when you do something you know you probably shouldn't, but then tell yourself all the reasons why it makes sense that you do it? For example, there was a boy I liked a lot, we had a little thing, but it got to the point that I would stop by his house every time I was sort of in the area, and he would never be there, and then I would get a little upset at myself for always going there in the first place. But I would try to convince myself it was alright on the way to his house, by saying "I am biking by here anyway.. I'm not doing anything else.. I may as well just check and see what he's up to" etc. But I caught myself in the act. I don't know if that example makes sense? Also, I say what I mean to everyone and I love it. None of that "I'm actually thinking THIS, but I'll just hint around it and hope they pick up on it" or "I'm a little upset that this person did that ,but it isn't such a big deal so I'll just hold it in" or whatever.
It helps that all my friends are so lovely and real themselves.
I love you Emma!!!
Rachellll