I think about the most random things sometimes and just speak my mind about it all. I like to know how i feel and know how other people feel, I always want too much and i am too hard on myself sometimes...I expect the best and than get kicked in the ass for messing up. i'm not perfect and i know that i just wish that i could be. Its all just blah I wanna go back in time and change my whole life, just live as a little 5 year old girl that plays dolls and imaginary games. I want to be able to say that i am always happy but that wont ever really happen i dont think. Everything just comes soo fast, i mean u could be playing house with your bestfriend in preschool and the next moment you are being pressured to smoke pot and do shit thats hard to say no to and u try to tell your self to stay confident. I always think about EVERYTHING before i go to bed, like how i could be and the better choices that i could have made. i just guess that i have to say that in the end it will be alright and things will hopefully get better but eh w/e have a great life.