Let's just say that most of my days have been the rainy ones. Nobody really seems to understand really where I'm coming from when i speak on certain subjects, for instance my son's father...took me through the gates of hell and drug me right into the fire! I can't fully blame him I guess, considering I am my own person and I make my own desicions. But his influence was very great upon me, and it was almost as if i were under some sort of spell...let's just call it "love". But it's actually kinda funny how you can think you "love" someone...but in the end you realize you never really loved them at all. You open your eyes and begin to realize what's really important to you...and most of all who you REALLY loved, which was the person who's been right in front of you the entire time!  But now that you have figured all of this out...your lives are so very different from when you first met. He has two kids of his own now, and you have one. There are so many levels of drama in each others lives you're not so sure that you wanna get involved...but this love you have....it's unconditional. And no matter how hard you try it doesn't subside. No matter how many arguements or disagreements you have, that is still the person you think of before you fall asleep each night. So now what? Do you take this chance and see if it's something real? If it was truely meant to be this way? Sure, you both struggle each and everyday, but when it comes down to it that person is the one place you feel safe from the world's many obsticales. This leaves you with a decision you have to make on your own. Something I myself struggle with the most....DECISIONS...I hate them, I never know what to do. But that's a whole other subject.....but you see, love will come find you even when you ignore it it's still gonna be there. You can run, you can hide, but at the end of the day your heart truely belongs to another. That's the thing about love.....