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Things one cannot write.... on 2007-08-31 22:38:35 |
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Traveler,
I know what you mean, as I have had many of these same thoughts. I'm sure you will be glad to hear that I am infact getting a new pup. My father and I are going on a little road trip this weekend to go pick him up. Although i can never replace my beloved pet, Skeeter (his name) I feel i need to have someone there. Thanks again for keeping in tough and your kind words mean alot.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutaa
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Is Anyone Listening on 2007-08-30 21:35:47 |
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t,
I understand what you're saying here. Depression is used as an excuse for alot of people. It makes the people who have real depression, seem just like the stupid, immature, self-obsessed, braty little teenagers who think depression is cool. I was cliniclly depressed about a year ago. It sucks. I know the feeling. Feeling like you can't tell anyone. Fear of being judged or given up on. I can tell you the pills that i take. don't fill the empty hole in my heart, they just help to cope with it. Just thought I'd stop by and share some feelings.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta.
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hate moveing on 2007-08-22 11:47:47 |
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Girl,
I'm sorry, i used to move every 3 years. It really sucked. I would finally settle down and make friends and then my parents would uproot me all over again. But I've been here for 3 years and intend on staying until i graduate. Hopefully, you'll be there for longer then you think. Maybe you'll stay. Hope so...stay strong.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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depressed on 2007-08-22 09:19:02 |
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hey girl...
thanks for the new way. I'll try it next time i feel like cutting and see how it goes.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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emo on 2007-08-21 11:59:33 |
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I know what you mean. Kids at school are always asking why i cut myself or why i'm emo. They make fun of me for cutting myself, for being so depressed. I can't help that i'm depressed and have urges to cut. Neither can you. People just don't understand what we go through. The shit we have to put up with. and the toll it takes on us. I'd like to see one of the people who makes fun of us emo, walk in our shoes for a week. Stay strong. Don't let stupid assholes get you down.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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Life on 2007-08-20 13:12:41 |
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Summer,
Your story brought a tear to my eye. I'm so sorry that you're going through that. I've cut for about a year now, i also overdosed on advil nighttime. I hope you stay strong and continue on with your fight. You've done some wonderful things for people who are less fortunate. God will reward you.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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Health Journal - Hydrogen Boost on 2007-08-20 10:49:50 |
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hello,
thank you so much for your advice. It really means alot that someone takes the time out of their life, to advise me on how to help myself. I really appreciate the support.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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Take me back... on 2007-08-19 17:18:51 |
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my parents are the same way. I've been having suicidal thoughts for about a year or so now. My parents think i should be happy go lucky. I just hope you don't let them and other people who feel that way, depress you even more, or allow them to feel hurt by their feelings. I hope you begin to feel better because depression and suicidal thoughts suck.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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Dad.. on 2007-08-15 23:41:15 |
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Well, what are the reasons you're going? i mean i think i know one of the reasons. But i didn't tell my dad why i was going either. I felt the same way you do. I can't really give you advice on this because i still have that problem with my dad. I can't tell him anything.
Ellie Cohutta
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Thursday will be... on 2007-08-15 23:39:00 |
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The first time i went, she had me talk alittle bit about myself to get to know me. But I also was there for a long time. She asked me the reason i felt i needed to see a therapist. She asked me questions about my mom, dad, and dillon. (the reasons i was going) stuff like that. It's pretty casual the first day. But good luck, tomorrow. Hope it goes well for you.
Ellie Cohutta
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weirdest dream ever... on 2007-08-14 15:02:31 |
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Omgosh i forgot to tell you. I saw sam at the mall on saturday at the mall. She looked like SUCH a whore...wait she is. but yea. just forgot to tell you that.
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Divorce on 2007-08-14 14:38:58 |
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My parents went through a divorce about 4 months ago. It was really hard on me. I went through a major manic depressant stage. I actually wanted them to get divorced. I have a question. Do they argue and complain alot? Don't you want that to stop? Maybe a divorce is best for them. People do fall out of love. It happens. I'm really sorry you have to go through it though.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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Anger on 2007-08-14 14:36:20 |
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i really love this poem. I like the depth and soul that's in this poem.
xoxo
Ellie Cohutta
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well...about me i guess. on 2007-08-14 14:34:05 |
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Hello Jade,
I'm kinda in the same predicament. I fell in love with this guy named Dillon. we dated off and on for 3 years. But then we went our seperate ways. He said that he loves me but the timing isn't right and it's just to complicated to get back together. Living without him has been the hardest thing to do. I started cutting and popping pills. I OD'ed and i had to get stitches because i cut so deep. I felt like no one cared about me. Then i met someone new. He helped me through my depression. You will find someone who is truly meant for you. Someone who won't hurt you or make you hurt. Its just a matter of time. Remember to remain hopeful and optimistic.
xoxox
Ellie Cohutta
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Stranded... on 2007-08-13 11:13:46 |
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James..you know I'm here for you. Sarah is right...screw him. But one question, why are you talking to allan anyways??
Ellie Cohutta
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a post just for myself. dont read if sensitve. on 2007-08-11 01:43:22 |
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Sarah,
I know you don't want to read another comment, but please read this. Life is worth it, it may not seem like it right now but it gets easier. I remember thinking i was so insane because of the way i felt. I thought no one was like me and that would drive me into an even deeper depression. But it got easier because like you, i wanted my brain to be 'fixed'. I wanted it so bad, more than anything in the world. And with the help from my friends and my will power i accomplished it. I really hope you do read this. I hope you do better and realize your life is worth so much more than you think.
Ellie Cohutta
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my time line on 2007-08-11 01:38:46 |
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Sarah,
Ellie here again. I'm so very sorry that this has happened to you. I feel the need to cry. I feel ashamed that people are like that. They can treat people like that. Especially their own kids. I do hope you look back on all that you've been through and use it teach your kids the exact opposite. I really hope you're doing well with not cutting. I wish you the best.
Ellie Cohutta
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Abortion. on 2007-08-10 23:54:06 |
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I think Abortion is a touchy subject for everyone because people believe it's the woman's right and others believe it's murder. I think it's cool though that you're speaking your mind about what you personally feel and think. Keep it up.
Ellie Cohutta
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Just a little rant... on 2007-08-10 23:12:01 |
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I do have to agree with jerrydg....that's extremely messed up. It's little immature brats who think they know everything. They know nothing.
Ellie Cohutta
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ugh...sisters... on 2007-08-10 23:10:42 |
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I'm sorry Ms. Valentine. She sounds really rude. Lol, you should hide your stuff...or get like a safe, and put all your stuff that you want safe in there. Hehe..that would be awesome. But I'm sorry that happens.
Ellie Cohutta
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military dreams on 2007-08-09 02:04:46 |
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you know when you watch movies and you see a bunch a guys eatin chips and drinking beer infront of a football game on tv? That's what Darby and Allan remind me of. You put those two together and they come up with some crazy-ass stuff. I think maybe Darby will grow out of this dare we call it, 'phase' i just hope he does before he's old enough to join the military. I support war and troops but when i think of one of my close friends joining, I want to cry. The thought of that person dying is unbearable.
xoxo
Ellie
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Candle Light on 2007-08-09 00:33:38 |
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This is a very sad yet well written poem. I really love how deep it is. you really put alot of feeling and soul into this poem. If you have some time, check out some of mine.
xoxo
Ellie
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no cutting !!!!!!!!! on 2007-08-09 00:06:27 |
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hi sarah...We don't know each other but i read your blog and it was like i was reading my own thoughts, my own story was right before my eyes. I had a problem with cutting a while back. What really triggered my cutting was my horrid, unbearable depression. I was going through an extremely hard time, cutting numbed the pain, but only temporarily. It helped for a while but it also kept pulling me down. It's great that you want to quit. It's going to be difficult, but if you really want to, you can quit. Have you ever tried rubbing an ice cube where you cut instead of actually cutting? it numbs you just as cutting does but without the horrible scars. Wish you the best. Feel free to talk with me if you want.
xoxo
Ellie
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