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no XXXXX surprise.. Explicit Content
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i told my dad today that i am depressed again.
you know what he said to me?
"Ellie, you're just bored."
WTF?!
my depression does NOT stem from
boredm.
how XXXXX dare he say something like that to me.
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2008-07-05 23:05:19
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wow. Explicit Content
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wow. it has been along time since i was last on.
a lot has happened since i wrote my last entry.
My mom moved away.
basically abandoning me.
no surprise.
I should have seen
it coming..
..should have prepared myself.
Dad got...
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pure_life411 on 2008-07-05 16:04:07
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bloodied star
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Hello everyone...
I haven't wrote anything in while...I felt like writing tonight.
I had a panic attack at church on Sunday night.
I ended up cutting in the bathroom.
...i was depressed.
Then tonight....i cut some more...
I was sitting in the bath with...
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2008-01-01 23:01:50
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hello...I'm back...
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Hello everyone...
I'm back from a long absence.
I was busy with the complications that life has thrown at me.
anyway...I'm still depressed.
Probably more than ever.
I've been cutting.
I stopped for a while than started again.
Over the few months...
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pure_life411 on 2007-12-19 22:33:55
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does anyone really notice?
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I'm beginning to think that I'm just another lost cause.
breath wasted.
taking up needed space.
No one seems to listen to me..
I'm talking...but it's like I'm talking to a wall.
they can see my lips moving
...but they can hear no sound.
No one...
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pure_life411 on 2007-09-23 20:37:54
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alone
depression
depressed
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Cops, murder, and parents. Explicit Content
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It's ten o'clock. I'm sitting on my bedroom floor with my two dogs. Listening to two different conversations. My mom talking to one cop. My dad talking to the
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2007-09-11 23:46:56
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Suicide letter Explicit Content
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So I’m just going to write whatever I feel right now. I don’t usually do this. I write, but it’s usually well thought out and somewhat, planned, what I’m going to write. Kind of like my fa&cc
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pure_life411 on 2007-09-08 17:46:29
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R.I.P my love
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so I'm pretty much lethargic right now.
My dog just died.
He was all i had.
He was all that mattered to me.
He got hit by a car.
What's ironic, is that i knew the kid that hit him.
He died at the vets.
I want to be strong right now.
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2007-08-29 00:24:28
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animals
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depression
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More cutting, thoughts of suicide, depression.
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soooo....
I cut tonight.
I've been cutting alot lately. More than i have ever.
I have all these little cuts, and scars.
I wish i could stop but it's become an addiction.
My dad finally set up an appointment for me.
(therapy)
I go tomorrow at...
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pure_life411 on 2007-08-28 20:38:17
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cutter.
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Mom & Suicide
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Saturday August 18,2007
I got a call from my mom tonight. She was plastered and ranting. She said she needed to talk to my dad (her ex-husband) and it was really important. She said she had to give him somthing before she goes. I had no idea where she was going. I asked...
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pure_life411 on 2007-08-19 22:47:16
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Any advice on my problem?! Explicit Content
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I've thought about something.
I want to go back to my therapist.
I'm sick of feeling like XXXXX.
I have all these repressed feelings i can't shake.
My anxiety feelings have been
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pure_life411 on 2007-08-16 21:41:31
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meet my alter ego.
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Hello my name is Isabella. I am Ellie's alter ego.
I live deep inside Ellie's mind. I thrive on the depression that so severly decapitates her brain. The churning, boiling, troubling, feelings inside Ellie's body are my fault. I am a mean, cruel, deceitful, exsistence. I make...
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pure_life411 on 2007-08-14 14:57:57
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Daddy makes me cry...
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I'm starting to become depressed again...it's my dad who's causing it.
He is so controlling. He controls what i eat, what i do, when i do it. He doesn't realize that what he's doing is causing me to go insane. I have no control over my own life. He argues with me about the...
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pure_life411 on 2007-08-13 21:41:44
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Pieces by Red
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I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way
Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I...
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2007-08-11 02:15:35
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Weird.
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my feelings lately have been indescribable.
I've been sad.
I've been mad.
I've been distrought.
Confused.
Puzzeled.
Many feelings all at once.
I've been having anxiety attacks again...they...
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2007-08-11 01:58:40
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Slipped
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I stayed with a friend last night.
We slept in a tent...we were really scared, so we kept a knife with us.
I was feeling depressed and i really really really wanted to cut.
I last cut back in june. But last night was different....
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pure_life411 on 2007-08-10 23:27:38
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More Kenny drama
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I got a text from Kenny this afternoon.
The first thing on my mind was, "More kenny drama."
I talked with him (via text) for about 5 hours. About how much he loves me and how much he really wants to get back...
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2007-08-10 23:08:26
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*sigh*
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I do believe i have become insanly confused.
I wrote that ^ 4 times. I was thinking of the perfect way of wording how i feel. But there is no way. There are no words to describe the feeling inside me. I'm beyond utter confusion. Kenny said he loves me, but he dumps me. He says he...
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2007-08-09 01:56:23
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Death by Suicide
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Fantasy living
Fake dreams
an unreal life
that's not what it seems
A real smile
in a fake life
a masked heart
filled with strife
Acid clouds
dripping rain
melting wishes
hands of pain
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Posted by:
pure_life411 on 2007-08-09 00:46:02
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