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maybe i was born fucked up.
something's got to be wrong with me.
they said i used to be so great.
i used to love my dad.
i used to love my mom.
i used to love everyone.
even though they both used me and manipulated me for their own sick revenge.
i dont trust either of them now.
i used to have the most detail-oriented memory
like an elephant.
and now i can't remember if i've eaten this morning or not.
i assume it is the weekend. but i couldn't tell you what yesterday or tomorrow was.
why can't i love anyone?
the only love i know how to give is the kind for my boyfriend.
i dont know how to love parents
i'm scared too.
or even best friends.
i'm even more scared too.
it feels wrong.
always wrong. or awkward.
i dont know how.
i want to learn.
but i'm stuck in my ways.
and too afraid.
where that girl went i dont know.
she was obese but didn't care.
till around 6th grade.
when the anorexia took hold.
then it was all downhill from there, i guess.
nothing to lose, right?
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Posted by pullthetrigger on 2008-04-13 15:21:33 | Rating: | Views: 63
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